Never Leave, Never Lie

by Thea Verdone

“I know you hate me and I know what that’s like. But you know what you taught me? You can hate someone and love them too. You can hate someone so much you think you’ll never be able to look at them without your heart breaking, only to fall in love with them all over again. Whether it’s a month, or a year, or the rest of my life, I’m not giving up on you. I won’t ever leave you. I won’t let you go without a fight. I’ll wait for you. Leave me if you want. Never come back if that’s what you decide. But there will never be anyone else for me. Only you. Only fucking you.”

“Yes. Yes. I know. I deserve love. Everyone deserves love, except Hitler, and so on and so forth. I know that.”

That anything worth doing will be scary, but that I should do it anyway. That fear should be felt, faced, and conquered. That there is no life without something to fear.