Variation

by Rebecca Yarros

The second her gaze lifted to lock with mine, I forgot how to fucking breathe, let alone think. I’d never been hit by lightning, but I bet this was what it felt like.

I wanted to know what kind of music she listened to, what books she liked, which movies were her favorite.

What kind of books does a person like is now a VERY important and telling question lol

She smiled, and I had to remind my heartbeat that we were only ever going to be friends, if that.

“As if you have any other setting but perfect

He was about as dependable as one-ply toilet paper.

Love THIS use of bringing up one-ply TP LOL

Maybe it made me a shit brother to be my niece’s sugar dealer, but I was a hell of an uncle, and I was okay with that.

Thats something my brother George would do for Zhafi lol

“I thought there was an age restriction for that!” “Oh, please.” She rolled her eyes. “I had to scroll a whopping three more years to create a log-in.” I blinked. This moment right here was why I was nowhere near equipped to be a parent.

LMAOOO frrrr

I wasn’t even thirty yet and I was falling apart.

“There aren’t enough words in the English language to convey how sorry I am, how sorry I have been, and I know that’s not enough.”

I hate apologies

I can simultaneously ignore that you destroyed me as a teenager while having manners. It’s called adulthood.”

“But the Rousseau sisters always had the look-but-don’t-touch vibe, and a touch-them-and-I’ll-ruin-you mother, and while I let that torch burn bright and hot before letting it go, Hudson here still carries his,

Hell yes. Fuck yes. Absolutely yes. Screw a plan. Whatever she wanted, she could have. “Sure.” Great vocabulary, jackass.

He’d been my number one supporter and, little did he know, my biggest distraction.

Her family had never let her take her foot off the fucking gas pedal.

God only knew what I would have done to see an actual smile, to know she was happy after everything she’d been through.

She means a lot to me.” Damn if that didn’t feel good to get off my chest. I’d only been holding that in for eleven years or so.

I’d never stopped thinking about her, missing her, wishing we’d had our shot at something beyond the friendship we’d both hidden our feelings behind. But I remembered . . . and she didn’t, which was both a curse and a blessing.

“You can’t seriously be dating my brother.”

I may have said this once or twice in my life LOL

I’m not seeing anyone, and even if I had been, it’s hard to focus on anyone else once you walk into a room,” he said, like it was a simple fact.

Awwwwww <3

“Please. Once you master faking an orgasm, any role is easy.

Ooop-

Oh, and she’s only indecisive because too many people tell her what they think she should want, and she likes to make everyone happy at her own expense.

Man, I’m glad I never did ballet. That looks like torture, not training.

Mom made me when i was about 6-7, worst hobby of my lifeee

The irony wasn’t lost on me that we’d gone from completely concealing our friendship to faking a romance.

I groaned in frustration, realizing I wanted to see him, that my eyes had been open exactly fifteen seconds and I was thinking about him.

Sleep had become my greatest friend, and maybe, if I was being honest, a coping mechanism that was quickly turning into addiction.

Sameeee

“That boy is like the river. Pretty to look at, but we don’t swim there.”

“Just another day at the office.” “Potential death is just . . . commonplace for you.” “Pretty much.”

I wasn’t above chucking my sister into the water after the way she’d treated Allie at the party.

Loving something that actively worked to destroy your body was a bitch.

“Well, I love ballet, but I never got to know who I am without it.”

Ballerinas do sound miserable

You need to work on your game, Ellis.” “You’ve never seen my game, Rousseau.”

I was used to craving things I could never have when it came to Allie, but the way she was looking at me now had me wondering, had me wanting

wanted him. I needed him. He was heat and warmth, and I’d been so damned cold for too long. He could have asked for anything, and I would have given it as long as he didn’t stop kissing me.

should have pushed him away, but I tugged him closer instead, like holding on to him now could somehow have forced him to stay back then.

After that kiss, I knew there would be a first time. And a thousandth. I’d never felt chemistry like that in my life. We were a foregone conclusion.

The scent of Allie’s perfume hit me like a shot of perfect tequila, and I breathed deep, more than ready to be drunk.

“Here’s the thing. I’m not scared to admit that I want you.” It was the easiest of the confessions I owed her.

“And when you’re ready to admit it, five minutes won’t cut it. I’ll devote hours, days, nights to being incredibly personal with you.”

<3

“You look entirely too good in a tux to ever wear one in public again.”

Tux >>

He’s a lifeguard or something.” Oh, for fuck’s sake. Good thing my ego wasn’t fragile.

He is a LIFE SAVER!!!!

Let me guess—he doesn’t tell you he’s about to come, he declares that he’s arriving.”

Bahahaha

Have to warn a girl that she’d better rev her own engine because your race ends before the first turn? Or are you the silent, grunty kind?”

OHHHH BAHA

I didn’t want to be some anonymous, fleeting, erasable guest in her life like the others who had come before me. I wanted to be engraved, etched, and carved so deeply into her soul that she’d never get me out.

“I’ll fold,” I promised, my voice lowering. “I’ll turn myself inside out if it means I get to be hers.”

<3

My thighs clenched in anticipation. This was going to be so damned good. It already was and we were both still clothed.

Foreplay >>>>

I’d seen him shirtless, but now I stared, fighting off the one word that wouldn’t leave my brain: mine

“Are you . . .” God, I’d felt how hard he was. “Okay?” He nodded once. “Nothing deflates me faster than the sight of your little sister.”

LMAOOOO

“What was it you said I should do? Fuck you so well that you’d never want to leave my bed, and dish out orgasms? Two down, and infinity to go. Sounds to me like it’s going according to plan.”

Ahhhhhhh :3

“Would have been a way better morning if I’d woken you up with an orgasm.” We started down the worn path toward the other cabins. “I do enjoy breakfast in bed.”

“Truth always differs depending on who’s telling the story, and in complicated situations, there are countless variations.

Truth