Sweet

by Howl Avery

Ellipses kinda piss me off. I don’t mean to bad-mouth my generation, but we use them so damn much it can mean everything and nothing, but no one ever seems to know which.

And that's what makes them so fun!

Kinda needy and even a tad insecure. I can work with that. He’s already got me smiling at my screen.

Lol

And as a testament to my youth, I end with a sad emoji this time.

You sound like a millenial

He is exactly what I need right now. Questionable self-esteem. Possibly dependent. Eager to please. And just so sweet.

I smile at my screen. Maybe it’s beginner’s luck. Or maybe I already found that special someone I’m looking for—the one. The next guy I’m going to kill.

Help?

“Hi,” he says with that perfect smile that could melt the coldest of hearts. A somewhat pained sound escapes while I raise my hand in a small wave.

Oh this is painful

On-the-spot social interaction has never been my strength. Not when the person is this attractive. Makes way more sense to figure out everything about them first to ensure the conversation flows in the right direction. How else are you supposed to say the right thing?

Im not the exact same as you.... But we on the same spectrum... So i understand lol

“Dude,” Jesse says with a shake of his head. “That was painful to witness.”

Yeah

“Great, because it was painful to experience.” Jesse sighs and grabs the empty crate, then stores it under a table. “You’re not exactly subtle, either.” “I can’t help it. Even thinking about talking to him makes my brain force restart.”

PLEASE

You converse like you’re young, like in your twenties, but the things you talk about aren’t school or hookups but work and friends. You’re fun, but you want to be responsible. Like you don’t think of yourself as a real adult yet. Closer to thirty than twenty, most likely.

Damn that was kind of a perfecf assessment

This is why I like talking to you so much. You have a great personality and you’re not afraid to use it. Thanks, babe. I made this one just for you.

SCREAMING!

Jess comes in while I’m stocking. And by that, I mean he catches me daydreaming while manhandling corn cobs. Wait, no, not like that.

Relax

Yes, I know I’m needy. What of it?

“Touch your cock for me.” And he says this without even a “please” tacked on as an afterthought. “For you, huh?” Maybe I sound annoyed, but I’m already whipping mine out. “I’m not there to do it myself.” He sighs on his end. “You have to do it for me, so I can hear you.” I don’t even have to exaggerate my gasping because I am so turned on right now.

Damn, who knew he had that dog in him like that? Lmao

Really doesn’t take much to keep Jess happy, which is what I like so much about him.

Interesting...

“He is great.” I give him a sweet smile. “He reminds me a lot of you in some ways.” “Only he’s romantic.” His tone is all mocking, and he rolls his eyes.

Does Jesse have a crush on you?

“Did I ever say I was straight, or did you just assume I was?” Maybe it’s the beer, but I can’t remember if he did or didn’t. “No, but you… you dated the girl who quit before I got hired. You told me yourself.” “And before her, I was still trying to make long distance work with my boyfriend from college. Thanks for the bi erasure.”

Period king

“Quit fucking with me.” Jess grabs hold of my shirt and pulls me closer, bringing his lips to mine—not in a peck, but an actual kiss.

Fuuuuuck. I must say, Im shocked.

What he’s divulged now seems carefully measured, something I would do. Something I would do. That makes me pause, if only for a moment. How similar are we, really? No, I’m being paranoid.

You're not

Jess will likely get pissed, but… oh well.

I know he's a bit of a stalker but now im also thinking he might be a psychopath

“Try.” I move a finger toward the open jar but he pulls back with a smirk. “Hold on, Pooh Bear. Don’t go sticking your finger in there.”

Lol, that was cute

Jess only laughs nervously along with her. “Do you remember how in high school, you tried getting everyone to start calling you by your middle name?” She pauses for another fit of giggles. “Cassius, like the boxer.” What. The. Fuck.

Wait. Waitwaitwaitwait.... The way that didn't even CROSS my mind! Oh. My. God.

“No… um… garlic and honey… never mind,” he mumbles. Now, I don’t know who once told this precious ray of sunshine to shut up about his special interests, but I want to knock their teeth in.

SAME! I love special interests

he moves closer to me before wrapping an arm around me with a contented sigh and kissing my shoulder. Not even while awake. He really does stuff like that even in his sleep, because that’s how sweet he is.

Wild

When Bailey starts to move away, I hurriedly pull him back toward me rather than let him panic again.

Would that not....make him panic more?

Even if one of those friends he’s referring to is me, it’s not Cas. Is it possible to be jealous of oneself? Because irrational as it may seem, that’s exactly what I’m feeling right now.

So you ARE Jesse!

“Cas, there’s nothing wrong with being asexual or whatever. You don’t have to beat around the bush.” “I’m… not?”

You sound like you could be demi

my first serious boyfriend was demisexual. It’s not completely unheard of.” “And what is that, exactly?” “They don’t experience sexual attraction unless they form an emotional connection.” “That… uh… might explain a few things, actually.”

Aw twin!

“No wonder you can’t get into fucking yourself without me, baby.”

OHHHH! ....Wait... Not i just learned something about myself

I give you something only I can do for you, which means you’ll have a level of reliance on me only you can offer. You feed my fixation and it’s exactly what yours needs.”

Fuck

I’ve decided to ask Bailey out. I need to see where this is headed. I am still fully committed to something with Cas, but that possibility becoming more real has only made me want to do this even more. My window of opportunity is closing and I need to take my chance at getting Bailey out of my system while I still can.

Interesting

his eyes lift to mine with the sweetest expression, all longing and innocence and—he is so lucky we are in public right now.

Lol

“Care to explain?” “He’s taking me out to dinner tonight,” I say with a shrug.

Bitch you know you the one who asked him out

“He probably wanted to make sure he didn’t forget to bring it, then threw it on over his sweater this morning. I don’t really know, but I don’t really care, either.”

You are a crazy good liar. Like i'm scared of you

Jess wears his heart on his sleeve, and it’s the best and worst thing about him. Bailey still keeps me on my toes and I fucking love it.

Damn, justice for jesse

I’m not sure if I should be impressed to see him so committed to the lie or questioning his sanity.

Real

I leave the folded bag in the backseat before pulling out of the parking lot. “I see. You’re going to make me smell it the rest of the ride as punishment for questioning you,” Bailey says. “Baby, if I wanted to torture you, it wouldn’t be with food.” I turn to smile at him before looking back at the road,

Your personality is so interesting to me. Is this what being charming is? It's So weird to see up close

“You’re going to eat all this yourself?” And I really can’t tell if he’s teasing or not. “Yup.” He smiles. “Then I’ll happily eat some concessions instead.

No that's insane. You got 4 meals worth of food. He needs to share

I’ve experienced enough to know he likes it rough, but that’s not really the problem. Hell, I like killing guys, so I’m in no position to judge.

Damn

Not soon. Tonight.

Fuck

Even if Jess isn’t Cas… fuck, I suppose I’ll never know now.

And you can live with that?

“There’s a new thriller streaming that I wanted to see.” Actually, horror, but I’m not sure he will agree if I say so. We spent the entirety of the last one making out, so I never got to enjoy him curling into me out of fear. I’m despicable, I know.

Lol

Bailey wrestles me onto my back and sits with his legs on either side of me. I’ve never really had the tables turned on me, and the unexpected outcome is a raging fear boner. Despite the arousal, I react close to the same way as he did, thrashing to get out from under him while he sits on me like an expert bull rider refusing to be thrown. Until Bailey tires of my fighting, and swings his hand back to smack me across the face so hard my ears ring

HELLO?!?! Lmao

My mouth is still hanging open once he’s riding me like our lives depend on it. Then both his hands slide up my chest, reuniting near my neck before his thumbs simultaneously graze my throat again.

Is he Cas?

It’s him. “Oh, fuck. Cas,” I gasp.

Okay so i thought this at the beginning but Jesse threw me off!

“That’s okay,” I whisper, kissing his head. “Plenty of time to figure more out.” “Is there?” He snorts again. Something about his attitude irks me,

If only you knew where it was coming from...

“Sounds like someone’s fallen in love,” he says with a smirk. “No. You fucking came along and tripped me.”

until I was a preteen, I used to find a way to peel everything I ate.”

I have questions

Probably going to regret this. No one cares to hear about this shit. Ever. I suppose Will is the type who needs to learn the hard way. “Nothing keeps farmed bees in manmade hives. They choose to stay.” “Why is that?” “No one really knows. They could leave and make their own hive, but they don’t.

Im already intrigued

“That’s also why I don’t just give honey away. Though I do make special ones, sometimes.” “Like the ones you gave me?” “No.” He sighs. “Not premium batches. More like intentionally crafted. Each one for a specific person.” “Someone you care about?” “Yeah.” And his eyes flick over to his honey shrine, then back to me. “Where’s my custom honey?” He chuckles at my wide smile and shakes his head. “None for you.” “Rude. I earned it.” “Not yet.” He breathes an even deeper sigh and I can’t tell if he’s irritated with me or what.

You make a honey for everyone you kill don't you?