Twist (Off Balance Series, #4)

by Lucia Franco

I love you, and it's killing me. —Anonymous

Damn this man. Damn his eyes. Damn his fucking body.

He believed in me. He saw my dream when no one else could. He was my salvation.

Two negatives make a positive. And that's what we were. Two flaws. But when put together, we were amplified in the most dazzling, inconceivable way imaginable.

"Let us go,"

"I am miserable! The only time I feel anything at all is when I am here, with you. And what I feel lately is detachment and sorrow. It is eating away at me."

"You should push me, just like I push you. Outside these walls I feel numbness. I hate leaving here. You are the only light I have in my life, but right now, all I see is darkness in you and I do not like it."

"I could not believe it even came out of my mouth. I am always so controlled, meticulous with everything I do, but there has been something about you since day one that threw everything off balance for me.

"Why do I put up with your little demands?"

"Because…you…love me."

Konstantin Kournakova was a walking, breathing Russian god.

He had no morals and I had no dignity.

"You cannot fucking hate me, because you love me. You. Love. Me."

"Could you live without me? Because I cannot live without you, and that is the God’s honest fucking truth."

"But I have never intentionally hurt you, Adrianna. You did that to purposely hurt me. How can I hurt you like that when I love you so much?"

"Do not tell me I do not love you. I did not know love until I fucking met you! I love you! Everything I do is out of love for you."

"She knows about us, Adrianna! I had to fucking marry her,"

"Cut me. If you want me to feel what you have been feeling, then cut me, but I promise you, malysh, a cut would never compare to the wound you just caused inside of me. You think you are the only one who is fucked up inside? Who is empty inside? You are wrong. Now you know what I have been going through. So put that knife to me and release me from the agony I deal with on a daily basis. Release both of us."

"But just know the moment you put the knife down, I am going to fuck you senseless. Right here, on your table, and I will not hold back. I am going to spend hours inside your body to remind you of us. I have never in my life felt anything like this with anyone but you." He paused. "Tell me you feel it too, that it is not just me."

"Fuck! Damn it, Kova, hang on." "This is not for you, Adrianna. This is for me. Now, take a deep breath and stay down."

"You better not ever fuck him again, or anyone else for that matter. You are mine and your pussy is mine."

"Eyes on me, Adrianna. Now let me show you how much I love you,"

"Relax for me, malysh, and make love with me."

"I wish you could see your face when you come. How your eyes get glossy, feel how your pussy pulsates around my cock. You squeeze me so fucking hard I just want to tear into you harder."

"I am yours, however you want me,"

"Always and forever."

"I am sorry. I should not have finished inside of you, but I do not know what happens to me. With you, I do not think clearly. I am consumed with us. This obsession takes over and I lose control and make stupid decisions. Only with you, Ria. Only with you do you make me do and wish for things I should never."

"Because you are mine and will always be mine."

"Just like I will always be yours,"

"Are you mine? Really mine?"

have been yours since the day you walked into World Cup, malysh. The moment I saw you, I knew that was it and that I would have you one day."

Ya lyublyu tebya, malysh. Ya lyublyu tebya."

"I am almost there… Oh, fuck. Just remember to breathe through your nose and loosen up, it will all slide down and you can swallow." Okay. Sounded easy enough. But it wasn't. Not even close. Kova's cock slid over my tongue and past my throat into my neck. My fucking neck!

I was going to die from giving head. My family would be shamed for all eternity.

"I am asking so I can feel what you are feeling. So I can get inside your head and see where you are, what I can do to help you. I told you, we are a team. I exhale, you inhale. I want to hear from your lips what is going on in your head so I can get on the same level as you and understand. You do not have to do it alone."

Little by little he stole my modesty and turned me into a vixen with loose morals.

"I made love to you last time, but this time, I need to fuck you until you remember who loves you."

"Fuck, I do not know how I am going to do this."

"Be married to her but only want you."

"Take it. Take all of me, please. Just take me as I am,"

"Do it. Push my cum out and let me watch it drip down your pussy and over your clit."

"I fucking love you," he growled, then crashed his lips to mine.

Our love and pain were entwined, curling around us whenever we breathed the same air. We were stuck in a cycle. A painful, endless cycle that had no light at the end of the tunnel.

"You just live. You live like every day is your last. You live, and you let those who want to live with you, live too. Do not shut the world out because you are hurting. You are going to miss everything that is beautiful about this chaotic thing we call life. You have a reason to fight now more than ever."

"And you have me. You will always have me." Kova pressed a hard kiss to my lips. "Let me live with you."

"I told you I love you, Adrianna. I have only ever truly loved you."

"I like you," I said playfully. "I love you," he said seriously.

"Bog, ya chertovski lyublyu tebya."

"God, I fucking love you. I really do."

"Please, don't hurt me anymore." "Never again, my love. Never again."