How Does It Feel? (Infatuated Fae, #1)

by Jeneane O'Riley

He alone had caused me more pain and anguish than I had felt my entire life, and I would not forget that.

uh huh sure you wont.😂

“The venom will get out one way or another, Callie. Either I call the nearest guard or suck it out myself,” he threatened, taking another step closer. “But know that I’ll kill the guard for touching you before his mouth has the chance to speak again,” he growled as if the mere thought of someone else touching me made him a savage.

Sigh

“My true name is Malum Mendax, Crown Prince of the Unseelie Court,” he whispered a little timidly, as if he were handing me a gun.

Ahhhhhh omg! melting

“You will never leave me, Callie. This is your home now.”

😏

“That was before you were my bonded. Before I realized I can’t live without you,”

Awwwwwww

“We may have both been trying to destroy each other, lamb, but rest assured, only you have succeeded,” he snarled as he turned. “I have tried and tried to rid myself of you. I have never felt the things that you evoke in me.”

Melting emoji like bruh you make him feel thinbs.😂

Mendax groaned and threw the glass against the wall. It shattered as he shouted out an angry roar.

Hot

“And I still want you dead just to rid myself of these nagging feelings! You are mine, and I will kill the entire world if it means keeping you,” he snarled. “Which includes getting the trace venom from your wound!”

Ugh I love him😂

“I-I have tried so hard to eradicate you from where you now live inside me.”

Awwwwww just love him.😂

“I would destroy anyone for you . . . anyone including myself,” he whispered, slowly reaching out to cup the side of my neck in his hand. “Every fiber of you has desecrated me wholly.” His voice cracked hoarsely. “The buttery texture of your skin has burned me with every touch. It’s all I think about. I-I am consumed by thoughts of you day and night.”

Awwwww melting emoji

“How does it feel?” he said, breathing heavily. “To know that I love you and that you have doomed me? That you and only you have the power to disarm and debilitate me. That you, a human, have dismantled every part of me and rebuilt it as a shrine in your honor.” His pupils were blown out almost completely black now. He trailed his thumb across my bottom lip as he bit down on his own. “The way your mouth quivers slightly when you hold back your fiery words,” he rasped seductively as he pressed his thumb into my mouth. “The spark that you hide has swallowed me whole.”

So beautiful😭 melting emoji

“It will not hurt me, little lamb. You are the only thing that could hurt me now,” he whispered as he stepped back and set my legs on the ground.

😍awwww

His soft blue eyes looked at me in a way I would have given anything to experience. From anyone but him.

🙄 ilk take him then.😂

“I am the bad guy, Callie.” He pulled away from my lips just enough to lay his whisper upon them, never opening his eyes. “Which is why you will never, ever be free from me again.”

So hot. I'd never leave😂

“I am selfish, and I like hurting people.” A haggard breath left him. “It doesn’t matter if you belong here or not. I won’t spare even half a thought before I murder every person in this world if they get in my way. I would search the crevices of hell and every nook in between for you. The Fae will beg you to stay, knowing that is what keeps their loved ones alive another day.”

Awwwwww

He was enamored with me, the man who hated everyone, wanted me. The man who everyone feared, feared me.

So jealous

“The next time you speak about my future wife in that tone, it will be your last. Mother or not.”

🔥🔥🔥

“I am yours to command, my love.” He pressed his soft lips against my cheek. “But I don’t think you understand the capacity of the blade you wish to wield.” Another kiss to my jawline. “It’s true, you may possess me now, but I will haunt you until your mortal blood rises from its depths to feel my touch.”

🔥🔥🔥🔥

I closed my eyes and forced myself to do what I had been sent here to do this whole time.

Bruh she fucking better not!!!! do not fucking kill him bitch!

Like everything else to do with Callie, I never saw it coming. The iron blade dug deep into the flesh just below my wing. The exact spot I had shown my love where to end me forever.

Oh my fucking god this bitch for real did!

“I was sent to kill you, but not by the humans.” She twisted the knife, literally and figuratively.

I hate this bitch.wtff does she mean!?! crazy how he saw through her the whole time. he knew.

“Callie, I need you. Please. Please don’t go. Wait! Wait to go until I’m dead so that I never have to feel the pain of you leaving.”

Ugh even with her killing him he still loved her.😭 fuck this bitch!

“You’re still the villain, Malum. You will always be the villain. Queen Saracen was right,” she said, her voice shaky now as she took another step away from me toward the door.

No way

“No one expects an angel to set the world on fire,” she said as a flicker of desperation passed through her eyes. “I’m sorry. I had no choice—it was the only way—”

Bullshit!

“Callie, return to me now, please.” My voice cracked with the surge of power I sent through to her name.

😭😭😭

Callie wasn’t her true name. The goddess had given me a false name the entire time.

No way

I clutched at her tooth hanging from my neck. My palm closed tightly around it as I settled further into the quiet, and it made me feel that she wasn’t all the way gone from me.

Poor guy😭

Of course I wouldn’t have shown her my real points of weakness.

Thank the gods!

No, I would heal, and when I did, I would hunt her down. She would lead me to whoever had made her do this, and I would kill them long and slow for whatever pain they had caused her. Then I would stop at absolutely nothing—nothing—until she was mine forever, my queen. There wasn’t a person I wouldn’t kill or a world I wouldn’t destroy to get to her. If anything, this only made me want her more. I wanted to give her darkness a home—a place to crawl inside of and corrupt. She belonged with me.

👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻🔥🔥🔥

My mouth hung open as I looked back to see Earl leaning against the white wall toward the foot of my bed. His demeanor was completely different. Suave confidence replaced the shakiness and feeble nature, and his voice had a familiar smooth tempo.

Whaaaaaat?!?😯😀

Prince Aurelius of the Seelie court stared back at me, his eyes brimming with emotion.

No way!!!!

His handsome smile dropped instantly. “Come on, Aurelius?” he pleaded. “Call me Eli like normal. You know Mom couldn’t find out I was helping you, or we would never be able to prove your allegiance and get her to return the other half of your heart. It’s the only way she would let you, a human might I remind you, come live in Seelie with us.” His charming smile beamed for an instant before his looks grew more serious. “It’s a good thing I did help you too, remember?”

😯😯😯😯😯😯😯😯😯😯😯😯😯😯

As soon as he stopped touching me, the smoke ceased.

😏 that's right don't touch his woman.😂

I swear I could feel a distant amusement that didn’t feel like my own.

😏👏🏻👏🏻

“Had you not been there to save her against Queen Tenebris, she would have never survived. You saw how tiny she had grown—how much power she had lost fighting the Unseelie queen.” He worried the bottom of his lip.

No shit!

I pleaded until the queen accepted. As any Fae did, the queen had enemies, and somehow along the way, I ended up being trained to execute her killings in the human realm. I was human, and therefore, her kills in the human realm were overlooked as she wasn’t breaking any Fae laws. Most Fae in the human realm were easy to kill. They never suspected it of me, and over the years, I had stopped using brute force and started to use my science background to help make the kills easier. It’s why I had taken so many classes on botanical poisons.

Crazy