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“There are some things that aren’t worth that kind of pondering. In my opinion, once you’ve made a decision, there’s no need to be bogged down in thinking about whether it was right or wrong. Instead of torturing yourself with those thoughts, why not think about what you can do about it now?
A single glance was all it took for Shen Wei to overheat as well.
Shen Wei felt as though his heart had been set ablaze. All the water in the world couldn’t have extinguished the flame raging in his chest.
Shen Wei brought his mouth closer to Zhao Yunlan’s ear. “Every living being under the sun has wronged me,” he breathed. “All but you.”
“You gave me my life, my eyes. You gave me everything. How have you wronged me?” “If I’d known…” Zhao Yunlan said in a haze, “If I’d known… I wish I’d killed you back then. I never would’ve…”
He had once told Li Qian that in life, there are only two things worth dying for: to fulfill your duty to your home and country, or to give your life for someone who truly knows you. Throughout history, people have spoken of sacrificing oneself for someone who truly understands them. Shen Wei’s willingness to die for Zhao Yunlan also encompassed a willingness to live for him, to give Zhao Yunlan everything he was and savor the resulting pain like honey.
Shen Wei said softly. “I want him back too. I miss him to the point of madness. But I can’t bear you going back to how he was. Kunlun-jun bore the weight of ten thousand mountains and rivers on his shoulders, and more—the natural order of things, the Great Seal, the Reincarnation Cycle… There’s no room to breathe. I don’t want you to live with that pain. All I want now is for you to be mortal and content.”
“So I’ll be a content mortal while you shoulder the weight of the Great Seal? Who are you to decide that?” Zhao Yunlan’s voice rasped painfully, barely a wisp of sound despite his best efforts. “You accepted me that day because you thought a mortal life lasts barely a hundred years—over in the blink of an eye. Next time I reincarnate, I’ll just forget you again, right? Were you going to accompany me on this last stretch and then…then follow in Nüwa’s footsteps…?”
“Never, do you hear me?!”
It was the first time their bodies had touched like this, skin on skin. The spark that ignited between them instantly became a wildfire, burning beyond any hope of control. It seamlessly blended with the memory of countless intimate, tender midnight dreams from which Shen Wei had bolted awake; this was like a grand dream that upended the Mortal Realm entirely. Dreaming, Shen Wei had never known when he would wake or when it would fragment around him. Now he found that the dream that could never see the light of day, the dream with the power to split the sky and shatter the earth, had always
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“I’ve always topped before. Even if you didn’t check with me first, couldn’t you have been a little nicer about it?”
Do you want to eat anything?” “Yes, you.” Zhao Yunlan said stubbornly. “Lie down and let me ravage you.”
