I whispered, “Now don’t you talk like that.” He looked at me and I saw he didn’t have any answers. He couldn’t solve anything. He tried to reassure me, “Don’t worry Scott. I’m not going to do it.” And then he said in another voice, “I’m going to do it. I’m going to do it.” And then he started laughing a laugh that wasn’t even a laugh but a cackle. He kept rocking and saying, “I’m not going to do it. I’m going to do it. I mean I’m not.” So I just slowly started backing away. He kept laughing. And so I left. I walked out of his office and kept on walking. It was a fever. It was a fever, and I
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