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God plays cruel jokes on me. Just when I promised to be good, he wants me to fall right into the arms of the devil.
Behind the glitz and glam, people live with lies and unhappiness.”
Never underestimate the power of pheromones and wicked smiles.
“Don’t think too hard. You’ll be stuck battling the ‘what if you dos’ and the ‘what if you don’ts’ instead of living in the moment. Call me if you need my help again. I’ll be around.”
“You drive me crazy. I keep thinking about fucking you, wondering how you sound when you explode in ecstasy. The moans you’ll make while you greedily take my cock. Is it breathy? Loud?”
Oh, no, when I commit to being bad, I’m all in.
Karma really is a bitch after all.
“You can’t call dibs on people. You sound like a B-list rom-com.” “But I fuck like an A-list porno.”
“If it were another life, I’d probably do right by you. I’d take you on dates and try harder. But that’s not who I am or how I was raised. I don’t know how to be the kind of emotional guy you desire.”
“They’ll never be as good as what we could have. But this is why people like you never have happily-ever-afters. You’re so jaded, you can’t see the best things until it’s too late.”
How do you fuck another woman right after you go on a date with someone else? It’s cold and disgusting. I honestly didn’t expect that from him.
“I think love is about happiness and sacrifice. Compromising instead of arguing. Having someone who is always there for you even when you don’t deserve it. Loving someone means you want to spend the rest of your life with them, on the good days and the bad days and everything in between.”
“Fear is not always a weakness. It’s what you do with the fear that shows your true strength.
“You can’t miss what you’ve never had.”
For once in my life, I don’t view leaning on someone else as a negative.
She fills me with hope. It’s a new feeling, wanting someone to believe in me while desiring to prove myself worthy of her.
“I’ll let you in on a secret though… Fucking you is the equivalent of winning a World Championship. I could never win again and be perfectly fine so long as you’re by my side. In my bed. Me inside of you. I like you a lot.”
Most of all, I like how she makes me want to be a better person. For her, for me, for the whole goddamn world.
People can only walk all over your heart if you let them.
Not being able to help the person I love is ten levels of fucked up.
“I didn’t fuck around with her. I love her. I’ll keep loving her through everything, no matter what you or anyone else says, or whatever you try to do to break us up. It’s insulting for you to even think I’d be with Maya to fuck around with your racing. She’s the end game. I don’t hook up with her for a shitty trophy, and sure as fuck not for a Championship win. I want everything with her. Everything after this.”
I want to put it past us, because I love her, and I want to be with her. Forever. I can’t help my crappy past and decisions, but I can control my future. And she’s it.”
If I didn’t already love him, I would have offered my heart at that moment.
And if I learned one thing in therapy, besides the fact that crying makes my face puffy as fuck, is how love doesn’t come with conditions. No ifs, ands, or buts. It should make you a better person—not because you have to be, but because you want to be. I want to be the fucking best for Maya and myself. Need to love myself and all that jazz.
Closure is a funny concept. Everyone talks about how cathartic it feels, but no one describes the pain you experience before. The courage needed to push through tough situations. How much it rips a person up to know they need to let go, not because they want to, but because they have to.
My therapist said I needed to face my past to embrace my future. Looks like I went to hell and back, scoring an angel along the way.
“Maya?” his voice rasps. “Yup?” “Keep talking. I love hearing your voice.”
I thought winning the World Championship was the best thing, the only goal I had for a long time. Shit, was I wrong. I realize today that the best thing includes winning with your loved ones.
I love this cocky, self-assured, yet equally selfless and loving man. No other can ever replace him. I never thought it was possible to love someone like this. Unyielding passion and endless appreciation. Like he hangs the moon before dancing with me under it.
