It makes me rethink my decision about this just friends bullshit. Clearly, we already have a hard time controlling our emotions. Staying here with her is only going to make it worse. But I know it’s not fair to Julia; she deserves to have a life, a family. That’s something she can never have with me, because no way in hell do I ever plan on having kids. My bloodline stops with me, the thought of fucking a kid up like my father did to me makes me sick.
