The first transfer failed. “It never crossed my mind that you could go through that and spend that amount of money and not end up with a baby. I felt so embarrassed by how much stock I put into that embryo that wasn’t really a baby yet. But eventually I realized I was allowed to grieve. I was allowed to acknowledge that I had gone through what I had both physically and emotionally and didn’t have to be embarrassed for hoping, for falling into the fantasy that this science experiment was going to work,” she said.
