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“You can’t shake hands with a clenched fist.” —INDIRA GANDHI
“You may be the Goddess of Decay, and Ramel may be the Reaper of Death, but I am the Demon of Chaos, Lilith. You named me well when you thought I was your cat.” He smirked, and I couldn’t help but grin back.
“You will submit to us. You will do whatever the fuck we tell you without complaint. You will stop fighting. You will agree to be ours and never try to run from us again. In return, we’ll remove your collar, and you will have full range of the manor, starting immediately.”
“It’s showtime!” —BETELGEUSE ,”BEETLEJUICE”
“To truly love another person is to accept the work of loving them is worth the pain of losing them.” —JAMIE, THE HAUNTING OF BLY MANOR
How sick and fucked up was I that I could enjoy being fucked by my captors? What the fuck was wrong with me?
Today had been a turning point. I knew tomorrow I wouldn’t be plotting to run. I wouldn’t be fighting them anymore. It was futile and useless to try, so why bother? Part of me was relieved. Things would likely be much simpler and less painful if I just stopped fighting. However, I couldn’t help but feel like accepting my fate here meant killing a part of myself that I hadn’t known existed. The part of me that was human. After my birthday, I would never be mortal again.
Keep it friendly, or people will start losing limbs.”
“Love is not about possession. Love is about appreciation.” —OSHO
“Rebellion is the seed of freedom.” —THOR HEYERDAHL
I needed to take my fear and rage out on someone, and I couldn’t think of anyone better than the angel who had tried to rape my wife.
“I am who I am. No one ever told me that I could be anything else.” —BEV KEANE, MIDNIGHT MASS
“You always wanted us to be happy. You never pretended to know what we wanted better than we did. You always did your best to make Hell a place free of judgment, where demons could be demons, and we could explore every dark, depraved corner of ourselves without fear of punishment. You freed us, Lilith.”
“The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.” —JEANETTE WALLS, THE GLASS CASTLE (2017)
“Knowledge is a weapon. I intend to be formidably armed.” —MAEVE MILLAY, WESTWORLD
I tried not to wonder if my growing affection for my two captors was a product of Stockholm syndrome or if my feelings were being projected by the other version of myself that was becoming an increasingly prominent entity in my mind.
“I love you, Lilith. I would rather be unmade than live in a world without you in it. If anyone tries to hurt you, promise me you won’t hesitate to use that on them.”
“God is a kid with an ant farm, lady. He’s not planning anything.” —JULES WINNFIELD, PULP FICTION (1994)
“If you want to stop me, you’re going to have to fucking kill me.” —RUTH LANGMORE, OZARK
“Three may keep a secret if two of them are dead.” —BENJAMIN FRANKLIN
Mike had wanted to help make a stand against Yahweh because he had wanted to help me.
“Ideas are bulletproof.” —V, V FOR VENDETTA
“So dramatic. You’re lucky I didn’t fuck you with a dildo first. You can thank Ram for that. He was worried you would like it too much.”
“Now you’re in the sunken place.” —MISSY ARMITAGE, GET OUT
He left the forty-three cuts we had made across his chest open and bleeding, crimson rivulets streaming over the black ink tattooed into his skin. A part of me was happy to see him bleed for his sins. The other part of me hated it.
“From now on, if you bleed, I bleed,”
“I can’t take back what I did to you, but I can promise that I will never hurt someone you love again.”
“I promise that unless they hurt you first, I will never kill another person you have not asked me to kill.” He searched my eyes, and I could see that he meant it. I believed him. “I don’t want to hurt you any more than I already have.” “You told me you would always hurt me,” I whispered. My gaze was tethered to his, and the air around us nearly crackled with electric tension. “Not like this,” he responded, gently rubbing a thumb over my bandaged thigh. “Never like this. Not anymore. I love you, Lilith.”
“Well, for one, I love how much you like to cook. Especially from scratch. You like to set up little stations and make perfect little pasta because it gives you something to do with your hands and allows you to escape the thoughts in your mind.”
“I love how hard you work. When you put your mind to something, you don’t quit until you’ve accomplished it. I saw it at Voodoo. You had nothing when you started there. I watched from the shadows as you ruthlessly overcame every obstacle you found in your way. You got yourself an apartment at eighteen with no one to help you.”
“I love how easy it is to tell when you’re nervous because you always chew on your thumb.”
“I love how when we worked together, you never let me work the service bar.”
“I love that you like scary movies and TV shows. You like the classics, but your favorite director is Mike Flanagan. You’ve seen all of his Halloween specials multiple times, and you love working out the underlying messages hidden beneath all the horror. You do this because you believe there’s a lesson to be learned, no matter how bad things get. You fiercely believe that if you look hard enough for a positive, you’ll find it there staring you straight in the face.”
“I love how fucking smart you are. You found a way to gain an advantage against Yahweh without any background knowledge in a matter of days. Your mind is incredible,”
“But the thing that I love about you most, Lilith, is that no matter the bullshit I put you through, you always find a way to bounce back. You always find a way to keep pressing forward and hope for a better future. Your resilience is fucking inspiring.”
“From now on, if you fall, we fall together. If you bleed, I bleed.”
He clung to me like I was an anchor, and he was a ship battling the swells of an angry storm. Don’t leave me, don’t leave me.
“The world needs bad men. We keep the other bad men from the door.” —RUST COHLE, TRUE DETECTIVE
Good. I wanted them to scar. I should be punished for what I had done to the one person I should have been protecting. It didn’t seem fair for me to make it through this chapter of our story unmarked. So, each time she hesitated or tried to be gentle, I forced her hand to cut me deeper.
“The seed worked. I have to say, watching Rafael saw off his own cock is one of my top five highlights for the year. It was fucking epic.”
“I’m the thing that monsters have nightmares about.” —BUFFY SUMMERS, BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER
“The world would spin on without me, Lilith,” he said softly. “But without you, there would be nothing. You must promise me that no matter what, you will stay in Hell where it is safe. Even if Shem or I are taken. Without you, we are doomed.”
“Right now, I need you to be you. Stop treating me like I’m going to disintegrate if you touch me. I need you to chase the nightmares away.”
His declaration felt more like an omen than a promise. It might have been comforting if it weren’t for the solemn fact that everyone who had ever bothered to love me was dead.
“If you don’t fight, you die.” —RICK GRIMES, THE WALKING DEAD
“I would die for her. I would kill for her. Either way, what bliss.” —GOMEZ ADDAMS, THE ADDAMS FAMILY
“Then I’ll blow each and every store to kingdom fucking come. It’s nice that Lilith wanted to do this the gentle way, but I fucking refuse to take this shit lying down. If I have to, I’ll do whatever it takes to get the upper hand,”
“I’m not okay because you’re not okay.” –SAM WINCHESTER, SUPERNATURAL
“I want you to want to be here with me.”
“It was Shem’s idea. We wanted to give you this space so you have somewhere to go when you’re missing him.”
