Definitely Better Now

by Ava Robinson

Then, after a pause, “How do you know if you’ll be miserable or happy with someone?” “Well, I think the first step is to not marry a stranger just because they fell asleep on your couch.” He shot me another smirk. “And then, well, marry someone who brings out the best in you.” “That’s what everyone says.” “Okay, think about it this way. When you’re with someone, if you like yourself, then they’re good for you. If you don’t like yourself, then they’re not. I think it’s that simple.”

Sometimes it can feel like disloyalty, letting go of past versions of yourself. Even though I’d changed so much about myself, even though I’d worked so hard for it, I still wasn’t sure who I was going to be or what exactly I was working toward.