But I also wanted to be a shiny new person. I had no attachments to my defects, I didn’t want to feel jealous, or lonely, or afraid. I wanted to feel whole, perfect. I wanted to be like the girls I watched fall in love and get married and have babies and live a normal fearless life. I didn’t want to be famous or rich or important, I just wanted to be able to feel my skin against my body and not want to tear it off.
