Never Have I Ever (Campus Games, #1)

by Stephanie Alves

My head turns, and I see an angel. I blink twice. I need to make sure I’m seeing right. I see a vision of blue as her eyes look up at me, and then she smiles. A smile so beautiful that I become hypnotized, apparently because I do nothing but stare back at her.

He wipes his mouth with the back of his hand, then he smiles at me and leaves.

Get drunk (ask Leila for other options besides beer) Kiss someone Go on a date. Go to a sex shop (do they still have those or is everything online now?) Go skinny dipping (maybe in the summer so the water isn’t cold.) Have an orgasm. Lose my virginity!

I keep picturing her blonde hair, her white dress, how she smiles, how sweet she is, how delicate her voice is.

“You blush so easily,” he says, laughing under his breath. “It’s embarrassing,” I say, feeling my cheeks get hotter under his touch. He shakes his head. “It’s cute.”

He approaches where I’m standing, but then his eyes land on the bouquet of flowers in my arms, and he frowns. “Who bought you flowers?” he asks. “Oh… well, no one. I bought them myself.” His eyebrows scrunch. “You bought yourself flowers?” he asks me. “Why?” I avert my eyes from him and look at the flowers in my arms. They’re huge daisies that fill out the bouquet so beautifully, and the sight of them makes me happy. “I love flowers,” I tell him. “And I don’t have anyone to buy them for me, so I buy them myself.” I shrug.

“When you told me that you buy yourself flowers because you don’t have anyone else to buy them for you, I felt bad,” he admits, making my breath hitch. “I know I’m not your boyfriend, but… we’re friends, right? And well, you have me now, so I’ll buy you flowers from now on.”

I’ll be nothing but an experience to her, but she will always be my angel.

I love her. Of course, I fucking love her. I want every moment with her. I want to wake up with her, go to sleep with her, share every day with her. I want to teach her everything and share all of her firsts with her. I want to hear her laugh, I want to see her smile, I want to make her happy because she makes me happy just by being around, by being herself. I want her. I love her. “I’m going to get my girl back.”

“Fuck, you have no idea what you do to me. I want you. Today, tomorrow, and the next. I want you forever. If you’ll have me, I want to be yours. Completely yours, and I want you to be mine.” I nod, I don’t stop nodding, and he laughs, but he doesn’t stop there. “I want to wake up with you, go to sleep with you, go on adventures with you. I want to buy you flowers every single day.” I laugh. “That seems a little excessive—” “I’ll do anything for you, angel. Everything. I will be the best for you. I will do everything in my power to make you happy. Whatever it takes, I will do it.”

“I’m so scared to lose you. To me, you are the definition of love and I’m so sorry, angel. I’m sorry it took me so long to figure my shit out and realize how crazy in love I am with you.”