I tried to follow the exaggerated rise and fall of his chest, but it was no good. I couldn’t get my lungs to obey. The tears came then, hot and vicious, each one scalding my skin. Colt said a bad word and then threw his arms around me, holding me close. His arms tightened as I cried harder. “LeeLee. I’m right here. I’ve got you.” That only turned my cries into full on sobbing. I’d been holding all of it in these past ten days. So tight it was nearly killing me.