What I Should Have Said (Anchors and Eagles #1)

by R.L. Atkinson

Grabbing the eraser, I pretended to use it as a microphone.

Does anyone genuinely even do this? Like i've only ever seen it in books or movies

Fingers brushed the tears away from my cheeks, gently, and I finally looked at Griffin. His face held a strange tension. Rage but also pain. Not at me, but for me.

“I guess the only question left now is, are you a grower like my brother, or a shower?”

Ew why would you say that

Thank you for getting him to smile again. And laugh. It’s been such a long time since I’ve heard my son laugh. It woke me up this morning, and I couldn’t have been happier.”

“You did so good for me,”

But I guess for him, he wasn’t sorry because this entire time it had all been fake.

I mean that’s what you literally signed up for

I was a dirty whore.

Grow up

Twenty-seven years and I’d simply decided one moment of pleasure was worth it.

VIRGINITY IS A SOCIAL CONSTRUCT. GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER

I simply made a point to shove them in the shredder when she was watching me. I was so upset that he couldn’t seem to face me.

You dumb bitch he’s probably deployed

It was increasingly clear as I reflected that if Griffin really wanted me there, he would’ve asked me himself.

1. You blocked his number 2. He gets shut down by your brother if he tries to speak to you 3. You shut the door on him when he came to see you Literally wipe your mouth because you’re talking so much shit.

Now here I am, rambling again. I’m not good at these feelings and I doubt any of this makes much sense. It barely makes sense in my own head, let alone figuring out how to voice the thoughts. What I’m trying to say is that I don’t really know what love feels like, but what I felt, and still feel for you, sure seems a lot like what I imagine it to be.

“It took you three fucking days to come find me?” I snapped, hearing some of the men’s suppressed laughter.

Bitch you better be joking

“I should have known. This is why girls always fall for the villains in books, at least those guys are willing to burn down the world for them.” Griffin shook his head. “I burned down an entire cartel for you, but I guess that shit doesn’t matter,”

Literally

He shook his head. “What did you want me to say, Jane?” “The truth. I wanted you to tell me the truth!” He snapped his gaze to me, his eyes darkened beneath his brows. “So, me telling you that I was in love with you that day wouldn’t have freaked you out? Because I’m pretty sure—”

“I love you, Jane. I have since you sat on my face,” he bluntly stated.