Where I End

by Sophie White

Thing 2. I had children and felt the terror of my own power to destroy them. Thing 3. I became a mentally ill mother and have experienced the desperate shame that comes with this. I have felt deranged with love for my children and deranged with fear that my illness will harm them. I have known what it’s like to have delusional thoughts spread like mould in your mind. The thoughts spread among your ordinary thoughts, masquerading as reality until you don’t know what’s you and what’s It.