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December 7 - December 11, 2024
“I would like to be your friend, though. I don’t really do that much, either… But for you, I think I’ll have to make an exception.”
the bar is low
“What? You can give platonic handjobs. I’ve given plenty of them.”
WELCOME BACK SETH CAPELLA
“You really like astronomy, don’t you?”
my moneys on her past life being connected to the stars / fates
“I’ve always loved the stars. Though, the moon and I have more of an… antagonistic relationship,” Arken had replied. “And why is that, Little Conduit?” “Because I can never sleep under a full moon,” she huffed. “It’s infuriating. Every damn month. Amaretta always said it was because I was born under a full moon.”
SUS
Fucking Hel. It had been less than twenty-four hours, but that smile of hers lit me up the same way it had yesterday. For a moment, it felt as though we were standing in front of the Mural of Creation again…
comparing her smile to the MURAL OF CREATION??? goodbye
“Doesn’t everybody admire the night sky?” “No. Not like you do.”
“About the Aetherborne and how they mapped out the constellations in the names of the fallen. That whole concept of the Fates existing among the stars, guiding our paths… I don’t know. It stuck with me.”
It would seem that like me, Arken didn’t do relationships, which essentially made her the perfect companion.
i have terrible news
Looking beyond the surface, finding the most intricate details to admire and appreciate. It was the same way that she looked at the sky, too. And sometimes, it was the same way she looked at me.
Not a real fox, but one that appeared to be made of Light aether. It looked as if it were molded out of the starry constellations of the night sky, and it was… sleeping? With a small scroll of parchment in its mouth. It was sort of adorable. This had to be Arken’s mail sprite.
GASP- I WANT ONE
“I mean, according to the Irrosi, a mortal could be born with the power of the gods! But when that happens, it’s supposed to be a sign of the end of days, right? Because it would break all the laws of arcane science, disrupt the balance, and trigger a second Cataclysm. A single Harbinger could kill us all.”
no biggie
My gaze drifted over him lazily, and I realized that his trousers had slipped down dangerously low on his hips. That skin-tight undershirt of his was riding up just enough that I could see… Gods, I could see a lot. Too much. This was just rude, really. Had he been carved out of fucking marble?
we don’t blame you girl
I was getting better at tempering my degeneracy around her, but it was a little easier to play off as friendly flirtatiousness when she wasn’t staring at my fucking groin.
degeneracy 💀
“You are almost always the exception to my rules, Arken.
UH
he wrapped one arm around my shoulders, offering me that second mug of tea which I had forgotten about.
AH
How are you going to take a woman like Arken to bed and not even fuck her well?
PERIOD
If that hadn’t been the case, I wasn’t sure that this Mason would still be breathing. What? It was perfectly normal to be protective of your friends, and Arken had quickly become the best friend I’d ever had.
oh my god the denial
“Do you care about her, sir? Is she one of ours?”
why is this making me emotional omg
As he reached out his arm to snake it around my waist, I was about ready to pull a punch… And then I felt him. Felt his Shadows before he’d even rounded the corner behind us.
LETS GET READY TO RUMBLEEEEE
“By all means, Arken, defend yourself as you see fit, but you don’t need to defend me… Let me be the bad guy for both of us, okay?
🥺
“You can steal my aether any time, Little Conduit.”
this is a sext
I looked away, blushing a bit. Why did that phrasing feel so intimate?
SEE
Arken shrugged. “Maybe I’m in the mood to get thrown around a little.”
she’s literally just a girl
I needed to lock myself in this townhouse and throw away the key in order to resist the overwhelming urge to run right back and shove my tongue down her throat.
this level of pining
I wasn’t sure exactly when that had happened. At what point had Arken become so… integral to my well-being? How was it that the tendrils of her Light seemed to permeate even my darkest of Shadows, illuminating pieces of myself that I’d once thought were lost? The parts of me that laughed. The parts of me that dreamed. The parts of me that felt… worthy.
If you want my hands on your thighs again, Asher, all you have to do is ask.
LOSING MY MIND
She would beg me to let her taste it, to let her take me in her mouth. Arken would fucking plead for permission to worship my cock. And she’d do it while riding my hand, my fingers knuckle-deep inside her.
man’s imagination is crazy
Fucking Fates, I wanted to choke on that man’s cock.
WORD
His power called to me. My aether sang back, surging through my veins, even now.
But I had almost lost her, and we were past the point of reason. If I wanted to get any semblance of sleep tonight, it would have to be in a shitty armchair in the infirmary, by her side as she slept.
I wondered if she had any idea that I’d really just been returning a favor. Saving the life of someone who had made mine worth savoring.
“I’m not sure if you realize this, Arken, but it’s perfectly alright to let yourself be taken care of from time to time.” Though his tone was serious, there was a glimmer in his eye that told me he was mostly teasing. “And you don’t even need to be on death’s doorstep to deserve it.”
No, the gloves were off now, and before he could speak another stupid, sexy word, I leaned into his caress and… I kissed him.
FUCKING FINALLY
Please don’t run away from me, Arken. Not now. I would beg, if she asked me to. I needed her to stay. I needed her, period.
arken do not hurt him
I knew that, I did. I just didn’t care, not anymore. I had carried her weak, lifeless body out of the woods last night and almost lost myself inside the terror that I had been too late. What I was about to do would surely complicate things between us, but I didn’t fucking care anymore.
SOUND THE ALARM
“I know we shouldn’t. But since when do we always do what we’re supposed to, Ark? Please, just come back here and kiss me again.”
I AM ON THE FLOOR
“Would it help if I begged, sweetheart?”
In the grand scheme of things, though, all of those reasons felt like paper-thin excuses to avoid this, the most explosive chemistry I had ever experienced in my life.
“Consider this me begging, Ark. I want this. I want you. Gods, you have no idea how long I’ve wanted this, how many times I’ve…”
“You are,” he whispered. “You’re so fucking beautiful, Arken. It devastates me. You know that, don’t you?”
I would give this woman anything she ever wanted, so long as she asked for it with that same breathy moan. I’d set the world ablaze. Fates, I’d set myself on fire just to see another flicker of the desperate, needy hunger in her eyes as I stripped her of what remained of her clothing.
This was rapture. It was ruination. It was everything I had ever fucking wanted, but never once dared to dream of experiencing. Made for me. She was fucking made for me.
“But if you want it rough, pretty girl, I will so very happily oblige. Is that what you want from me right now?” “Please,” she whispered. Gods. I fucking knew it. Oh, I was going to have so much fun with that little masochistic streak of hers.
nobody look at me
“Tell me what you want again, Little Conduit.” “I need you to fuck me, Kieran,” she panted. “Hard.” Music to my godsdamned ears.
“Don’t stop,” she begged again. “Fates, please don’t stop. Gods fucking damnit, I can’t—” “You can take it,” I groaned, grabbing hold of her ass cheek with my free hand. “I know you can.”
“Would you like to be tied up like this, beautiful? I wouldn’t even need the rope,” he whispered.
oh shit
Now, I stood before a familiar obsidian table, inlaid with dark and ancient runes. Nausea surfaced at the memories I had here, but this time, it wasn’t a younger version of me being strapped down to that table. It was Arken.
oh fuck
Because you’re in love with her. You’re in love with her, and now you have something you’re not willing to lose.
the first thing I felt was fear. Complete and utter terror. Because I loved her. I was in love with her. Fuck.
