Gypsy: I just never felt I could get clean enough. Getting baptized was about renewal. I felt clean every time. Every time I felt like a bad person, I’d want to get baptized. Like little things made me feel bad. If I would tell her a lie, keep a secret from her, small things, if I talked back to her . . . I’d want to be baptized. Growing up with a mom who had schizophrenia, who saw shapes and shadows and heard voices, I felt like
This is what scrupulosity looks like. Religious OCD. It’s debilitating.
