Stand and Defend (Lakes Hockey, #4)

by Sloane St. James

If I slept with Camden, he’d probably laugh at me. The more we’ve spoken, the more I realize how little experience I have. My skills are limited to my own masturbation and living vicariously through my books. Blowjobs even elude me. The only ones I’ve given I had to beg for, and they weren’t appreciated, which means they were probably lousy. I need to watch more porn before I climb into bed with anyone. Especially someone like Camden Teller. “I told you how inexperienced I am. You don’t want this, trust me. I’m a mess.”

“Oh, Sunshine, I love messes. I’ll take care o...

“...

“But the lights stay on—I want what he never got to see. I don’t want to miss a second of wat...

He sits next to me on the sofa, his lopsided smile is so striking with that damn backward hat of his. “Can I kiss you?” I look away, and my mouth curves into a grin. He asked. He’s facing me, but suddenly, I’m too shy to even glance back. The other night happened without thinking, now all I’m doing is overcomplicating it in my mind.

“Okay.”

“Jordan.” He takes a hit and sets the joint down. “Let’s j...

His fingers thread into my hair, and he opens my mouth with his, blowing the smoke inside. I inhale and let the high tamp down the noise in my mind. I’m done caring. At least for tonight. He kisses me deeper. It’s a rush. Before long, he loops his fingers over the sides of my leggings, and I let him peel them off. He smiles, then goes for my shirt. I do the same to him. I will not be the only one naked. When his shirt i...

I straddle his lap and continue kissing him, my fingers trail down his abs, appreciating his muscles. He feels so different from Bryan. Opposite in almost every way. His body is hard and firm, his hands calloused. Cam grabs my thighs and shoves my hips down on him, and I grind slowly. Even with his pants still on, his cock is different from my ex’s. So different. I’ve seen it with my own eyes. Would he let me give him a blowjob? Would he give me pointers and encourage me through it? When I’m left in only my underwear, he fills his hands with my breasts and tugs my nipples, sending waves of pleasure through me. One hand skates over my stomach and continues lower . . . His t...

“Fucking hell, Jordan. You are so wet.” Not surprising, this is more foreplay than I’m used to. He slides one digit ...

“How many fingers can you take in this ti...

He adds another, pumping them inside me while I enjoy myself. Touching me doesn’t benefit him, yet he keeps going. What is he getting out of this? It feels incredible. The sound of my wetness fills the space. My arousal practically dripping out of me. He pulls his hand out and wipes it on my nipple, dropping his mouth and sucking it off while he looks up at me. Oh my god. My jaw drops, and I smile at his brazen move. He pops off me and shoves his hand between my legs a...

He brings our mouths together, swiping his tongue across mine, and I moan as I taste myself on his lips. His thumb hits my clit with the proper speed and pressure, ref...

My breaths quicken, my core tightens—I might come. He probes, tapping the spot inside me I’ve only ever reached with a vibrator, and I’m sent over the edge. “Oh my god!” An invisible wave crashes over me, trickling down my entire body. I grip...

“Thaaat’s my fucking girl,” he growls. His praise sends me deeper, my vision tunnels as I’m swept up in total pleasure. I stare at him dumbfounded. A man made me come. A smile takes over my face. That was incredible. “You have no problem coming.” “Show me how to give a good blowjob,” I ...

“Wait, you’ve never given a blowjob?” “Of course I have, but I want to be better at it.” The idea has always turned me on, but I never got enough practice, and Bryan wasn’t into it, which negated the whole experience. It wasn’t fun. He leans back on the sofa. “Get on your knees.” I do as he says. He studies me, kneeled on the floor between his parted thighs. He’s hard, and I want to see what was rubbing me in all the right places when I was grinding on him. See what I saw when I walked in on him. Cam nods at his crotch. “Go for it, Jordan. Show me.”

I push down the gray joggers. His cock bobs out, and I try not to pay attention to the thickness or piercings. They’re intimidating. Using only what I know from experience, I do what Bryan liked. I make myself look as pretty as possible. Running my fingers through my hair to smooth it over and bringing it behind my shoulders. Then I sit up with good posture and open my mouth, taking him inside. The bead of precum hits my tongue with a satisfying saltiness. I love it. I keep my eyes down and focus. In and out. Keep my mouth tight, which feels impossible with his size and piercings. I’m scared I’ll let one of them hit a tooth or something. I can only imagine how easily I could hurt him. Clean and disciplined. I gave blowjobs here and there before Bryan, but I was a teenager—and knew even less than I do now.

“A little wider, you can take it.” I open my mouth wider, but it doesn’t seem to make a difference to him. He’s as quiet as Bryan was. My self-esteem starts to tank. Fuck, I’m terrible at this. “Come on, Jordan, you can suck ...

The only popsicle I had was when he was gone; how did he know that? Did he watch me on camera? “Wetter.” I stop swallowing so much and let some saliva pool on my tongue. “Wetter . . . I want to see you drooling for me.” I pop off him and tuck my hair behind my ears again. “I’ll look ridiculous, it won’t be hot if I’m ...

I don’t answer. This is what I was afraid of. I’m so ashamed. My experience is garbage. Covering my face, I shake my head. “This is so embarrassing. I knew we shouldn’t do this. Shit.” I drop my hands to the floor and push off to leave, but he holds my shoulders in place. “Our lesson isn’t over. You want to do this, then let’s do it. I don’t know what fucked-up shit Bryan is into, but forget everything he ever told you. Blowjobs are meant to be wet and sloppy. You suck, slurp, and lick until I fill your mouth with cum, understand?” He leans back on the sofa, cups my face, and brushes my cheek with his thumb. The smile on his face is wicked. “Stop being prim and proper and show me what a filthy slut you are when nobody’s looking...

He leans forward and grabs my chin, getting right in my face. “Then fucking act like it.” Oh my god. The way he speaks in that tone. Flames lick at my neck, and I’ve never wanted it more. “Make it wet.” I spit on his length and slide my lips over him. He smiles. “Be my messy girl.” I’ve never been spoken to this way or treated like this, and I can’t get enough. I moan around him and take him deeper but gag. Before I can feel mortified, his voice cuts through my negative thoughts. “Ugh, I love that sound. It’s okay if you choke a little . . .” If that didn’t deter him, I’ve got nothing to lose. His encouragement spurs me on, and I go all in. I stop worrying about what he might think. All the little rules from Bryan go out the window. I take him deep, letting myself drool around his erection, swirling my tongue un...

He growls. “Oh fuck, Sunshine. You were holding out on me.” He sucks air in through his teeth and grunts. “Ugh, this is my fucking fantasy. Look at me.” When our eyes meet, it’s like I can’t control myself. His are dark and filled with lust, as if he’s warring between anger and ecstasy. It’s the greatest aphrodisiac seeing how turned on I can make him. It’s my fantasy too, being with someone who’s as into it as I am. It’s empowering. “Oh, you’re a fucking pro. Goddamn it, Jordan. Why were you hiding this side of you?” I let his words wash over me and build my ...

“Grab my balls like this . . .” With his hand over mine, he wraps my hand around the base and tugs, and when he lets go, I repeat the movement, and he groans while letting out a laugh. “Fuck. You’re doing so well.” His hands thread into my hair and push the strands away. He stares down at me, stroking my cheeks. “You sure are easy on the eyes, aren’t you? Yeah . . . you know you are.” He goes quiet, and he looks down on me like I’m the one being worshipped. His eyes appear entranced as he stares. “So fucking beautiful,” he whispers, though I’m not sure he even realizes it. He leans back on his hands, his head tilted to the side...

“Hearing you enjoying yourself drives me wild.” I moan, and he cups my cheek, smiling. “This is still your blowjob, you are in control.” I’ve never had this before. It’s rewarding as hell to make him hard, feel him twitch in my mouth. See the sharp inhales, the way his jaw clenches and relaxes. Watch his head loll to the side as he regards me with reverence. No one has ever looked at me the way he does, and my skin buzzes all over. I get to choose h...

“Yeah? I’m going to pull a little bit. If it feels good, make a noise telling me you like it. To...

I nod again. As soon as he adds tension, I hesitate. My eyes find his, and they’re filled with trust. Suddenly, my scalp prickles, and it shoots straight to my core. It’s rough and commanding, but in a different way than I’ve experienced. His watchful eyes are studying my reaction. The firmness increases, and it’s a mixture of pain and affection. He’s not trying to hurt me. He’s not Bryan. I moan, and he tightens his hold. The more pressure he adds, the greater the sensation. The trust be...

“You like it rougher than I thought you would.” He works my scalp and alternates between stroking my cheek with a feather touch and pulling my hair. It’s magnificent. It’s like feeling real pleasure for the first time. Unfortunately, my jaw is getting sore. He must sense it because he smiles and asks, “Do you want a break?” I nod and pop off him. This is thrilling. I felt powerful, desired, wanted, all the things I’d been missing. He strokes himself while watching me. I bite my lip as I w...

Seeing him touch himself and smiling while I watch, gets me wetter by the second. “I want to try again.” I need my mouth around him. I already miss it. He grins, with a sparkle in his eye, as if he’s proud of me. “This time, I’m going to try and set the pace by holding your head. If it’s too much, you tap my leg like you did before, okay?” What does that mean? “Too much?” I ask. “If you need to take a breath, or don’t like it, or want to end. Remember, you don’t need a reason to stop other than simply wanting to stop. Got it?” “Mm-hm.” I love that. I can stop any time, just because. “Open up for me,” he instructs. I do, looking up through my lashes and feeling sexy as hell. His mouth opens with mine. Like he’s trying to convince me to eat. He slides betwee...

He fists my hair into a ponytail and sets a gentle pace. I’m panting, relishing the loss of control. It’s like he’s using me to get off. I like it. It’s exhilarating. “How’s this?” he asks. Needing more, I move my head side to side, trying to push him deeper. I want all of him. I relax and turn my hands into fists and swallow him farther than I eve...

“Fucking Christ!” He roars, then grunts. “Do it again, baby. Exactly like that.” He’s begging me. It’s the first time he’s called me baby. Normally, it’s my name or sunshine. I repeat the move, and he groans, tossing his head back. “Oh, you are so fucking precious . . . Eyes, Jordan.” I glance up to his. “Do you have any idea how many times I’ve thought about this? How many times I’ve gotten off to fantasies of you on your knees? Those beautif...

I moan. I can’t get enough. It turns every bone I have to jelly. Makes me feel valued and wanted. Cherished. He clutches my hair and pumps into me. “Good. I like it too.” I suck and swallow, letting him push to the back of my throat again, and he becomes more erratic with his movements and control. His piercings skitter across my tongue as he invades my mouth. It almost tickles. “Fuck, you’re a fast learner . . . I’m gonna come. I don’t want you to swallow it. Hold it on your tongue. I want you to taste me.” His panting turns into curses, and I lavish every second of watching him fall apart. When his cum hits my tongue, I resist the instinct to swallow, ...

His fingers slide between my legs. I tremble, needing his touch. Needing friction. The second his thumb hits my clit, I melt. “Don’t swallow.” Breathing through my nose, I salivate with his climax behind my locked lips. His fingers push inside me,...

“Mm-hm.” It coats my tongue. It’s my prize, I earned it. I made Camden Teller, sex extraordinaire, come with my mouth. I can hardly take it. My body is on the cusp of another orgasm. Crushed against him, he snakes a hand around my waist to hold me up and whispers in my ear, “Everyone thinks you’re so demure, graceful, and elegant. Do you have any idea how fuc...

groan and shiver. His fingers are relentless, and the corner of my mouth leaks with him. “Hold it,” he warns, pressing the heel of his hand against my clit. I’m panting through my nose, and my knuckles whiten with the grasp I have on his arm and shoulder. “God, I love corrupting you. You’re such a pretty little thing all flushed and flustered. These sweet hips are grinding so hard. Are you embarrassed by how needy you are? Watch this....

“Mmmmm!” I panic, trying to keep my lips sealed. The sensation of my climax slips further away, but as soon as he stuffs his fingers back inside, it’s as if it never ...

The moniker warms me from the inside out. He attempts to pull out again, but I grip his arm and hold him in place as I hum every moan. I’ve never come more than once, but if anyone can make me, it’s him. His forearm muscles flex against my palm as he brings me to my peak. “Tsk, tsk. What would everyone say if they knew the real Jordan loved getting finger-fucked with a mouth full of cum? Always wanting more.” ...

My eyes squeeze shut as I swallow and gasp for air. He keeps rubbing my clit through the orgasm. Euphoria washes over me as I come on his hand for the second time. He smiles and crashes his mouth to mine, swiping his tongue inside, no doubt tasting himself. I feel the biggest rush of vulnerabili...

This woman’s got an ass built for back shots but a face made for missionary.

And her willingness to try new things? Goddamn. Her blowjob had me coming harder than I ever have before, not because of her technique, she’s still learning. What got me was opening her eyes to true pleasure and seeing a sex-starved demon staring back at me. Jordan is the exception to all my rules with women.

She lies back on the pillows, and I shove one underneath her backside, propping her up. I plan to eat her all the way to her ass. Grabbing her panties, I peel them off. She’s glistening. I kiss her ankles, knees, and inner thighs; occasionally nipping her flesh, inching higher. Her scent is addicting, and I need it on my tongue. She hisses with each love bite but sighs when I lick it all better. When I reach her pussy, I look up at her and lap at her arousal. She’s so wet. Her head falls back, and she drops her mouth open.

“Oh my god,” she whispers. “So fucking delicious.” I lick again and crawl over her. “Come here.” With a thumb pressed to her chin, those soft lips part, and I sweep my tongue over hers. She blushes and I grin, returning to my home between her thighs, where I could live out the rest of my days with a smile on my face. I spread her open wide, licking each side and up the center, picking up every trace of her on my tongue. I don’t want to spare any of it.

She threads her hand into my hair and scratches my scalp with her nails. I groan. “Greedy boy.” Well, look at who has some dirty talk of her own . . . I chuckle and slide a finger inside. “You have no idea how fucking selfish I can be.” Watching her carefully, I add a second finger, and she grinds against them. “That feel good?” Her only response is a moan, and I chuckle. “You’re cute when you forget your wo...

She doesn’t even know what that does to me, whimpering my name like that. She tightens her grasp on my hair and tugs. I grunt and suck harder. “Oh my god. Oh my god, it feels . . .” I look up at her between her thighs, and her gaze snaps to mine with wide eyes. Her mouth drops open, and her cunt grips my fingers while she grinds against my face. Hell yeah. I keep the same rhythm, not changing a thing, I want her orgasm drawn out as long as possible. She props up on her elbows. Tears swell at the corners of her eyes as her legs quake. I remove my hand and thrust my tongue inside, enjoying the w...

“Jesus, Jordan, you are so beautiful when you come, baby. Keep coming, you’re doing so good. You deserve this, let yourself have it.” I dive back in and suck her clit again. After one more loud cry and arch of her back, she slowly comes down. Her muscles eventually relax, and she wipes at the tears on her face. She sniffles, and a huge ...

I laugh and nod. “Absolutely.” She’s fun to play with. “You ready now?” “Yeah. Show me what else I’ve been missing.” “Tell me you’re on birth control.” “I am.” I kneel between her thighs, spreading her wide open for me. She’s plump and pink, and I’ve never seen a pussy need t...

“You spit on me.” “Yeah, I did.” I smirk, and the corners of her eyes wrinkle with a grin. “Do it again.” She’s l...

I prepare to spit between her legs—her lips part in slow motion. She gapes at me like she doesn’t want to miss it. Those big dark-brown eyes are dancing with curiosity and lust. I push her legs wide but snatch her throat with one hand. She grabs my wrists, and I pull ...

Her fingers press to her chest. “I can’t believe you did that,” she says, almost laughing. I chuckle, sliding between her legs again. “Did you like it?” “I shouldn’t like it.” “Nobody gets to tell you what you should or shouldn’t enjoy.” Her thighs part, and I smile. Grabbing behind her knees, I lean forward and push my forearms against the back of her thighs, spreading her until she winces, putting her on full display. I smile and take in how pretty she is like this. My well-manner...

I slap my cock against her clit, then rest it at her entrance. I want to fuck her hard. Show her exactly what she’s been missing while she’s been in the wrong man’s bed. I want to see her shake as every rung of my ladder is stuffed inside. As soon as the crown breaches her pussy, I’m in trouble. It’s different. The freckles on her nose. The depth of her eyes. The way she’s breathing. All of it. She will not be a one-and-done.

Why is slapping his cock against her clit so hot!

It’s not like me to admire the woman I’m fucking the way I do Jordan. I rarely have repeats with someone, twice tops. This was supposed to be a one-time thing, a fun activity while we’re high. I’ll admit I wanted to erase Bryan and his fucked-up idea of sex . . . I’m sure it was easier to fuck her if he didn’t have to see the hurt in her eyes. I won’t do that. Ever. But tonight, it’s not the high that feels intense, it’s Jordan. She intrigues me like no other, has me curious. She’s exciting. I know after the first thrust, once will never be enough with her.