It was never the orbs. It wasn’t a dark spirit or some ghost bullshit that I so desperately tried to believe in. Of course it wasn’t. Now that I know what this is… What am I supposed to do? I can’t be gay. It’s not an option. It’s never been an option. I’ve never considered the possibility of it being an option. I can’t be gay. I’m straight. I’ve only ever liked girls. I’ve only ever been with a girl. If I was gay, wouldn’t I know by now? I’m seventeen, and I’ve never been attracted to a boy until now. That has to mean something, right? I can’t be gay. I’m—I’m a Christian. It’s supposed to be
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