Beautiful Sinner

by Sara Cate

I may have had Abel already, but now I’m bringing out the Cain, and I like it.

“You know that’s not true, Cadence. I tried to stay away from you. You know as well as I do that I do fucking own you.”

Fuck, that kiss. It was my first real kiss in over ten years, and I could die happy with that kiss alone. But I want more. I want to never stop kissing her. With those full lips against mine and that soft, round ass in my hands, I don’t know that there’s anywhere else I’d rather be.

Because she doesn’t know her worth, that’s why. Cadence gives her heart and her body away in hopes that it will be enough to please them, but she never gets anything in return. How do I make her see she’s worth so much more than what a review says online? How do I make her believe that God loves her? That I love her.

“Will you love me? Devote your life to me? Marry me? No. I know you won’t, so why are you doing this? What could possibly come of it?”

My mind screams that this is wrong, but my heart doesn’t know the difference between God and Cadence.

Her head hangs back, her lips open and her eyes clenched shut. Her cheeks are tinged pink, and my God, the sounds she’s making. I could record them and listen to them every second for the rest of my life. It’s exquisite. Too fucking beautiful to feel bad about.

I’m almost proud of her, my headstrong girl. Too beautiful for her own good. Too fucking tempting for mine.

“No, but I want to see you do something for yourself, Cadence. You’re always doing so much for others. You spent your whole childhood taking care of me and your sister. Your relationship with men has always been about meeting their expectations, but what about yours? If you stay for him, what is he going to do for you?”

He’s mine. All mine.

Cadence: Forgive me father, for I have sinned.

That moment was a holy union, and it was even presided over by a priest.