that would eventually kill him, told Collier and Horowitz about seeing his aunt Rosemary in a magazine. “She had a new pair of white shoes on and she was smiling. The thought crossed my mind that if my grandfather was alive the same thing could have happened to me that happened to her. She was an embarrassment; I am an embarrassment. She was a hindrance; I am a hindrance. As I looked at this picture, I began to hate my grandfather and all of them for having done the thing they had done to her and for doing the thing they were doing to me.”
