Chaos (Beneath the Secrets, #1)

by Luna Mason

I’m not letting her go a second time. I’ve regretted it every day since.

“Good girl,” he mutters against my lips. “And even if you bankrupt my card, which, to be honest, would impress the hell out of me. I’ll just sell a couple of my Lambo’s.” “You are completely reckless, Jax.” “I prefer the term chaotic. It’s my quirk.”

“I’m sorry, it’s just so funny. You injured your tongue going down on me. Like, I’ve never heard of that before in my life.” With each beat of her hand against her leg, her laughter grows louder, until she's doubled over with tears streaming down her face. When I pop the ice onto my tongue, it’s an instant relief.

“I love you, Sofia. You complete me in ways I never even realized I was missing. You are everything. I live for you. I will die for you. You are, and always will be, the perfect in the midst of my chaos.”

It isn’t fair. He was talking about marrying me. Who cheats when they’re supposedly that much in love?

i stg we better find out he didnt SOON

I want to scream. I want this to stop. I need this to end. I can’t control it anymore. It’s festering inside me, growing and taking me over.

“You are not weak, Jax. You are so incredibly brave. You’ve battled this for so long on your own. You put everyone else first before yourself. You’re an amazing man. We can find the best way for you to heal, baby. There is a way through.” “I don’t feel it,” he whispers. “I know, baby. I’ll show you. We’ll do this together. Okay?”

Now the good days outweigh the bad. I have a radiant light in my darkened world. And in spite of everything, there is always beauty in chaos.