She had rejected Rosedale’s offer without conscious effort; her whole being had risen against it; and she did not yet perceive that, by the mere act of listening to him, she had learned to live with ideas which would once have been intolerable to her.
I have to admit that Lily's ambivalence is becoming annoying. She needs to stop dithering and make a decision to either go to Selden and take him up on his early offer of marriage at Bellomont, find a way to make some kind of living (which Carry Fisher offered her), or follow Rosedale's advice and marry him.
