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“You’re extraordinary. I swear you will never stop amazing me.”
My Friday nights have always consisted of parties, my bedroom, or a hotel room when I’m at away games. Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought that I’d be learning how to make blueberry pancakes with the mother of my child at two in the morning. It’s kind of wild but all in a good way, and I hope to God this isn’t a dream because waking up is going to suck. Coming here was the best decision I could’ve ever made.
“Remember when I said we’re going to be in each other’s lives forever? That means that if you ever need me, I’ll be there. If you need to talk or if you need a hug or anything at all, I’ll be there. I’ll always be a text or call away.”
“I refuse to let you talk about yourself like that. I’ve not known you for a long time, but I can tell you I’ve never met anyone as resilient as you are. You don’t just amaze me because you’re talented but because you kept pushing despite everything that’s happened. You’re so extraordinary. Please don’t ever let anyone make you believe otherwise.”
Lola’s so fucking beautiful and she doesn’t even realize it. She says she’s messy, but she’s like a work of art. She’s sort of chaotic, magnetizing, and covered in the colors of the universe. I don’t mean that because she has paint on her skin. No, it’s the coalition of amber and green in her eyes, her golden copper hair, the tinge of red that sometimes coats her cheeks…
“Thank you.” “No, thank you.” “For what? I’m the one who cried on your shirt.” I chuckle. “For giving me a chance, for letting me be a part of Phoenix’s life. For not getting the abortion.”
“Can I kiss you?” “Yeah,” she breathlessly says. I feel so fucking alive in this moment.
God, I miss her. You just saw her this morning. My subconscious mocks me.
Me: I think about you so much it’s unhealthy, and then you go and send me this picture.
“I can’t say. I’ve been sworn into secrecy.” He pretends to zip his lips. You’ve got to be fucking kidding me. “Secrecy?” “We’re part of the OCC. It’s in our oath.” I blink. “OCC? Oath?” “Only Child’s Club. We don’t have siblings, so we rely on each other, that kind of thing.”
“Thank you. You have no idea how energizing it is to have a peach. I had one earlier today, and it was all I needed to give me that extra boost. I swear the benefits are insane.” His cheek twitches.
“Thanks for the boost,” he said earlier today when we spoke on FaceTime. She smiles. “Well, I guess I should have one myself.” He brings his bottom lip in between his teeth, releasing a deep chuckle. “Yeah, the good ones are hard to find, but I swear when you find the right one, it’s worth it.”
“Seriously, hurry up. I don’t understand why it’s taking you so long to pick a damn book. Who needs that many books anyway?” There are two books in his duffle, and he’s currently holding one in each hand, debating which one he wants to take. “I don’t know what mood I’ll be in.” “Mood? Does it even matter? It’s a book. Let’s go.” He whips his head in my direction, staring at me like I’ve offended him. “God, you know nothing. I can’t just take any book. I have to have options.” My gaze drops to his duffle, staring at a very familiar and worn book. “Didn’t you already read that one?” “It’s called
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“I like her a lot. I like her so goddamn much, I don’t just physically want her, I need her. Everything she has, I want. But the problem is I don’t think she wants what I want. Anytime I try to bring us up, she shuts me down. Like she can’t bear the thought of being with me.”
I don’t know when it all happened, when I fell so fucking hard for her, but all I know is that I want to be with Lola.
“You should have her move in with us. Lola can stay with you, Cara with Jayden, and Daisy with me,” he jokes, wiggling his brows.
“I missed you.”
A beat of silence passes between us before a tentative smile grows on her face. “I, uh, I missed you too.”
What I feel for TJ is not just a hapless infatuation. And I have to stop lying and telling myself that I don’t miss him because I do, I really do.
We created this little routine, and I didn’t realize how much I missed it and him until I saw him again this morning.
“Having me around too much could possibly be your downfall.” “Or the best thing to ever happen to me.”
“I was distracted because every time you’d bend over, I was trying my hardest not to look at your ass and get turned on.”
“I was doing my goddamn best not to imagine how I’d fuck you against this pool table.”
“So no, I wasn’t going easy on you. I was too distracted thinking of the many ways I’d like to fuck you, Lola.”
My thoughts are so chaotic, but I’ve never been more sure as two words slip out of my mouth in a rushed whisper. “Show me.”
“Don’t stop.” His voice is gruff against my lips. “Don’t fucking stop.”
“Let me hear you.” It’s not a question but a demand. “Don’t worry, they won’t hear you. No one will. So let me fucking hear you.”
“Look at yourself and look at what I do to you, what you do to me.”
“Come on, Peaches, show me how badly you want to be fucked. Show me how badly you want it.”
This man’s mouth is dirrrrtyyyy 😳✨
“Good fucking girl.” He groans in my ear. “Now come.”
“I don’t want you to think that this doesn’t mean anything.”
“No, don’t take my shirt off.” “Hey.” I tuck my finger under her chin, tilting her head back so that I can see those pretty, earthy eyes. “Don’t do that.” “I just—” She timidly smiles. “Trust me, it’s best if I leave it on.” “And trust me, it’s best if we take it off. I want to see every inch of you. Your stretch marks aren’t going to deter me from appreciating your body the way I’m supposed to.”
“You had our son. You brought life into the world. They’re proof once again of how astoundingly resilient you are. Please, for the love of God, don’t ever feel like you need to feel embarrassed or hide them from me or anyone else. They’re part of something beautiful that you and I created.”
“You’re so beautiful,” I softly say, grabbing her waist, and steadily let the pad of my thumb drift over her skin. “Don’t ever let this make you feel any less.”
“I can’t stop looking at you like this because I am enjoying this way too much. Don’t ever ask me to stop because as long as I get to see you like this, I’ll never stop enjoying it. Not until I have every inch of you memorized.”
“I haven’t been with anyone since you.
“I don’t want anyone to see you like this.”
“I never want anyone to see you like this.”
“The world would be too boring if I didn’t add a little chaos into it.”
“But you must have made one hell of an impression because he went out of his way for someone he didn’t know. He knew he’d get grounded but still took Dad’s yacht without permission to impress you. Mind you, it was brand new when he took it.”
“And to top it off, he goes and christens the bed.” I open my mouth to speak, but nothing comes out.
“They were angry at first, but it doesn’t matter now. You guys gave them a grandson. It was a shock to us all, but you should see how happy they were once it wore off. Especially Mom. She’s gone overboard with shopping for Phoenix, but I guess you really can’t blame her. He’s the only grandchild. My reign as the youngest is now over, but I don’t mind it. He’s just too cute, and those cheeks,” she coos.
“I’ll make sure I take every last maple puff, and I’ll sell his bears to pay for my surgery.”
You’re a good dad, TJ. I’m so proud of you.”
“Fuck the world and fuck anyone who thinks otherwise.”
“Welcome to the family, Lola.”
“I’m going to bed now, but I just wanted to say that I’m so happy Phoenix and Lola came over. Hopefully, your brother didn’t deter Lola from coming again.” “No, Mom, I’m sure Lola will definitely come again.”
“Put your mouth on my cock, baby.”
“Lola, baby, suck.”
“The first time I took it was because I was trying to impress my girlfriend.” “Your girlfriend…was she impressed?” “I’d like to believe she was.”
