“You moved out, and Adam and Grace moved away, and now we barely see each other. It feels like the fuller your lives get, the less space there is for me. If I leave, maybe that space will go away completely.” Eli’s attention is a weight, like his hands on my back just minutes ago. It was like that with him, too. The bigger his job and anxiety got, the further it pushed me until I was crammed into a corner. Until I was so small there was no space at all.
