Between Never and Forever

by Shain Rose

“I’ll never be your friend.” The words came out fast with fury. “I’ve told you I love you; I’ve promised myself to you. I want to marry you…not be your friend.” She gasped at my confession, yet I continued on. “You’ve always been my girl, my girlfriend, my future wife. Nothing less. Don’t you get that? I promised you forever, Kee.”

“I won’t stop until I have you. You know that, Kee. I won’t stop till I get you out of my fucking system.”

Whatever God was up there had blessed her and cursed and condemned me with the sight of her.

“I heard you trying to leave me again, but it’s not happening. I’m too obsessed with you to let you go.”

“Just making sure you’re aware of the parts you like, heartbreaker. Highlight them so you can read them to me later.”

“You asked me once why I needed you in my home. Not just wanted. Needed. It’s because I was dying without you, Kee. Suffocating. Couldn’t fucking breathe without you. Is that answer enough? I didn’t commit. To anything. I haven’t loved a woman before you nor will I love another after you. I knew it then like I know it now. I have always loved you, and I hated you for that, Kee.”