Sex toys I didn’t even know the names of. I didn’t need to. I slammed the drawer shut and closed my eyes as I breathed in deep. How many were in here? How many had he enjoyed while I thought of him? It made me want to be reckless, want to cause him pain, want to retaliate. Didn’t he know we’d belonged to each other over the years, even if we hadn’t? Had he hated me that much?
