Between Never and Forever

by Shain Rose

“I’m just thinking”—she wrinkled her nose like she hated what she was about to say—“maybe it’s time to start putting a little more of yourself out there, sing some of the songs you want, be a little more yourself, and—” “Definitely screw Dex once or twice. See if the dick still fits,” Pink finished for her. My jaw dropped. “Wow.” “I know.” She stared at me with those eyes, no shame in them at all. “I’m a lot. It’s fine. Love it or hate it.” I glanced at Olive who whispered, “I kind of love it.” I turned to look back in the mirror and sighed. “I have a good brand.” “That you hate.” Olive nudged Pink, like they were a team. “Right. You need to show him and everyone that you’re more than a brand. Plus, sounds like you loved little Dex at one point or—” “I… Honestly, Ethan is—” “Oh, for God’s sake, I’m not an idiot.” Her eyes lit up with fire then. “Don’t waste time treating me like one. I get that enough. You’re here for a while, so don’t lie to the crazy makeup artist who will be doing your face every night.” Silence descended on the room, heavy with questions from me and judgment from her. Yet, I immediately envied how direct she was with nothing to hide, and part of me wanted it. “Fine,” I whispered and glanced at Olive. “Redo my hair. Add more eyeshadow too.”