Business Casual (Lovelight, #4)

by B.K. Borison

Maybe the lack of physical release is starting to turn me into a goblin. A gremlin.

Someone who makes it easier for him to be exactly who he is.

I’m distracted by Gus from the firehouse standing on a table, whipping his shirt over his head to a Backstreet Boys song.

I knew I liked Gus

graceful as a dancer

She is a dancer...

This early, there’s only a few people in the front of the shop.

I just can't see anyone driving out of town to a farm to get their morning coffee

He makes me feel wanted

i want that

eyelashes flutter against her cheeks.

those must be some long ass lashes

“Lock up when you go.”

this doesn't feel like a lock up town

bent me over the side of my bed and fucked me so hard I thought we might break the frame.

this could heal me

Relationships require work, time, and emotional availability.

has seen the state of Stella’s cluttered house.

i like that she's messy

Being here at the edge of it has me feeling homesick for a place I’ve never been.

I know my appeal. I’m the fun time. The break between more serious pursuits. The joke and the easy laugh.

I take up too much space, I want to tell her. I’m loud and sometimes I don’t know how to stop talking. I’m a lot and I know that. I can’t figure out how to make myself fit, but I’m trying. I promise I’m trying.

Take what you’re given and don’t ask for more.

I still don’t want a relationship,”

I hate that phrase so much. Just because you don't call it a relationship doesn't mean it isn't one, you jackass.

I’m being memorized. Appreciated. Devoured.

You look so pretty I think I’m having a heart attack,”

Do you think everyone sees the same colors?”

I've thought about this so much lol

It’s nice to be taken care of.

Asking for help doesn’t make you less deserving of anything you’ve already achieved on your own.”

Stop acting like this.

oops

Charlie, who always makes it safe and easy for me to ask for what I need.

I add sprinkles on top because I’m a grown adult man,

“I want you to feel me for days after I leave,”

But I didn’t lose anything to Charlie. It just feels like all the good things in my life got better.

I missed the part where we were in one all along.

like i said

Charlie, who has never been anyone’s first choice. Who has never been wanted.

I’ve held myself in check and settled for less because I didn’t think I was worth more.

but I like the games we play until we find each other again,

Hey, Mr. Mayor.”

i literally rolled my eyes