Idlewild

by James Frankie Thomas

I would never have admitted it then, but I can admit it now: on some level, I wanted to get away from Fay. If I hadn’t wanted that, I wouldn’t have made it happen. I knew what I was doing. That was the worst part of all.

HEARTBREAKING

In essence, I’d spent all four years of high school studying to be a gay man.

😭😭😭😭😭

He was stronger than I—the thought registered dully in the back of my mind—because he was growing into a man, and I was not, and in the end there was no way around that.

Absolutely devastating