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how is something light ever to survive against the shadow of the things I’ve done?
Mirren and I aren’t done, which means I am not done. There is so much more I want from this life, even if I have to wring it out with my bare fucking hands.
I breathe fire as I call my power back to me. It rolls across my tongue, but I swallow it down gulp by gulp until I can feel my human body once more. I coil all of its fury back in my chest where the only person it can burn is me.
Because I am a son of the Darkness, and I knew too well there was no world in which we’d be allowed to live peacefully; no world in which the goodness wouldn’t be stolen from us at some point. So every time I touched her, every time I took her lips beneath mine, it had been desperate. If I’d lived in the present, treated it more gently, would I still have it? Or should I have held on even tighter, with claws and fists?
There is something morbidly addictive about horror, something that draws people to witness it even as they cover their eyes. Because in someone else’s ruin, they are able to whisper: It wasn’t me. I am still whole.
tea
I’ve never treated her delicately—there is no soft way to hold onto a current that pulls you home.
he has no intention of turning around.
thank god cause why are you acting sucidial
“Don’t leave me. Don’t go where I can’t follow. Let me into the Darkness with you.”
oh ok sob
And in that moment, I know I was right to be afraid. Because there will be no coming back from this.
hell ya
Those who doom others will in turn doom themselves.
“We’ll watch the flames together,”
done deal
“You don’t believe in hope. You’re the most cynical man on the planet.” Anrai cedes a small smile. “I am,” he agrees, his expression growing oddly earnest. “But you are hope, Lemming. And I’ve always believed in you.”
sooooo what if i cry?
“What’s wrong?” “Oh Maxwell,” Avedis interjects with a dramatic air, “it’s more of the same. The world is on the precipice of total annihilation and our brooding beast of a fire-wielder has once again managed to make it all about him.”
lol i eat up soulless Avedis
Maybe this is the hope Asa spoke of—not borne of thinking the best of the world, but thinking the world of one person.
i’m actually fucking tearing up
“It was all for you, Mirri. I wanted a better world for you and Easton, a place where you could ask whatever questions were in your head and have them answered. A place for your soft heart to grow, to be protected. None of it means anything without you.”
maybe i’m just tired cause i’m crying again
“There are so many ways to lose your soul,” he whispers, his eyes flashing to mine. “I am sorry I lost mine.”
tears streaming down my face
Until I am the elements.
With one final push, the last piece is unearthed from beneath the red square of Similis.
“I’m beat,”
lmao
