I am not sure what this feeling is. It’s so different to any other feeling I’ve had when I first start seeing someone. I feel close to her, but distant from her. I feel excited but unsatisfied, caring but detached, invested and indifferent. It’s like we’ve taken all the activities of coupledom and put them in a framework of two strangers who owe each other nothing; who have no past or future. It’s confusing. Not confusing enough to stop, obviously, but it is confusing.
