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“You told her yet?” Dad says with a smile as we walk. My brow furrows. “Told her what?”
“That you’re crazy about her.” “Dad…” I start but trail off because I don’t know what to say.
Because I want more than just sex with Viv. I want it all. Do I admit that I’m falling for her?
but I see the way you look at her. You look at her the way I used to look at your mom when I was your age.”
“You make it work. That’s what you always do when you love someone. You put in work and show up even when it’s hard. That’s what sets a relationship apart. Being vulnerable is part of what love is, son. It’s trusting another person to take care of your heart. It’s scary, the unknown, but it has to be a risk that you’re willing to take. That’s up to you to decide.”
I’m falling for a girl who may never feel the same. It’s not like I can stop just because she might not ever feel the same. Because this doesn’t feel like a choice.
“Stop being so sweet. It makes me want to fuck your brains out.”
“I didn’t want anyone but you, Vivienne. Not then and not now. It’s only been you.”
I love that even when things are… intense between us, it still feels easy. Fun. Playful. Being with him always feels like that, and I don’t know if I love it or if it terrifies me.
I even caught him reading a book about supernatural stuff, and the boy is a complete chicken. Seriously, it gave him nightmares for like a week.” “No, he did not! Wait… Reese can read?”
“Love you, space babe.” “Love you more, my little murder maven.
“Mhmmmm. Guess I’m going to have to stop doing laundry if it means you’ll start wearing my stuff. Or maybe you’ll just have to be naked.”
“Hi, Grant. Congrats on the win tonight.” “Appreciate it, babe.” “She is not your babe.” Reese scowls
Grant: It’s a cat.
“Reese… what is that?” “Um… a kitten?” I feign innocence. Clearly, it’s a kitten, but… it’s a kitten that wasn’t here this morning.
“You bought us… a cat?” “Yep.
Of course, I remembered. Because when it comes to her, I pay attention.
I realize this makes me a simp, the way that I feel about her, and I also don’t give a shit anymore. I’m so fucked-up about this girl that I don’t even care how whipped I seem. I bought her a damn cat. That’s how bad I’ve got it.
I think it goes to show that she could ask me to rope the goddamn moon, and I’d somehow make it happen.
I want to be the one that makes her smile like this. I want to be the one that takes care of her the same way she ta...
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How can kissing someone feel so… intimate? I could kiss her forever.
“You’re so fucking pretty, baby.” “Stop being so sweet. You know it makes me want to climb you like a tree.” Her voice is raspy, heavy with the same need that I feel. “I’m trying to have self-control.”
“It was two days, Reese,” she says, giggling so fucking adorably. “You couldn’t have missed me that much.” “You’re sincerely underestimating how much I want to live between your thighs.” “Caveman.”
God, he kisses the same way he fucks. Unhinged and possessive. Like he’s staking his claim every time he touches me.
“Are you gonna hold my hand?” His eyes shine with amusement. “’Cause you know I’m fucking scared of ghosts.” I nod. “Of course. Don’t worry, I’ll protect you, Reese.”
You know, for a six-foot-three, bad-ass collegiate athlete, you sure are a baby.” “I am manly as fuck, Sweet Tart. Do I need to remind you with my dick?”
“Um… a ghost?” He shakes his head. “Nah, fuck this. We’re getting out of here. Right the fuck now.” “Bu—” He cuts me off by bending down and throwing me over his shoulder
“Nope. I’m done. We came, you saw, and now we’re getting the fuck out of here before something drags us down to hell.”
“You can put me down now, you caveman!” “Nope, not till we’re safely out of this bitch,” he mutters.
It’s time. I can’t even pretend that I’m not crazy about her at this point, and truthfully, I’m done trying. I fucking want her. All of her. I want her to be mine. I want the whole world to know that she’s my girl.
I don’t get what the big deal is. Everyone’s so annoyed that I’m being an over-the-top cat daddy, but I can’t help it that I love her. I’m not apologizing for it. I’m a proud helicopter cat dad.
I’m fucking afraid too. But loving her… it’s not a choice. I can’t just turn it off.
What matters is that we want to make it work. I want to be with you, Viv, and I’m going to do whatever it takes to make that happen.”
“I told you before, I’m not fucking leaving you, Viv. Not now, not fucking ever. Do you hear what I’m saying? I’m. Not. Leaving. Because I fucking love you. Do you understand that? I love you.”
“And this is what you do when you love someone. You stay. You show up for them.”
“I will be here to hold the weight when it’s too much. I’ll be your strength when you have none left. I’ll hold you, and I’ll take all the shit you wanna give me. I’ll be whatever you need as long as I’m with you. Let me love you, Viv. Let me be the one to take care of you and to be there for you so you’re never alone. I love you s...
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Let me take care of you for a change. Let me put you first. Let me fucking love you. I was made to love you, and I’ve never been more sure of anything in my life.
This is what I’m sure of. I should have told you that last night, but I was scared to. I was scared that you’d run, that it would be too much for you to hear. But tonight made me realize that you run when the world gets to be too much, but I’m coming after you, baby. I’ll chase you to the ends of the goddamn earth.”
And you’re not going to lose me. I’m in love with you. I’ve never told a girl I love her until today. I’ve never been in love in my life. Maybe with baseball, but that hardly counts. I might not always get it right, and I’m sure there are going to be times where I fuck up and you get pissed and throw shit at me. And times where you’re regretting your decision to be with someone who’s constantly on the road. But I’m going to show up, Viv. Every fucking time. I know you’re terrified that one day you’ll push me away and I won’t come back. But that’s not going to happen. Because I love you. And I
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And I feel it in how he stood here and took every single awful thing that I threw at him because he knew I needed to lash out, that I needed to break. And he didn’t walk away. Instead, he put me back together.
“I’m just sorry that I had to tell you I love you here, in the middle of all this and not in a grand gesture kinda way. You deserve grand gestures, baby. I want to be the guy that gives them to you.”
Quiet strength. That’s what he gives me in the times that I need it most.
“You need this time with your mom, Viv. I’ll be right here waiting outside. Even if it’s hours, just take your time. Okay? I’m not going anywhere. I love you.”
God, it will never get old. Those butterflies swirl in my stomach at the sight of him. He’s been my strength through all of this, even when I didn’t deserve it, even when I didn’t think I wanted it, and… I… I just fucking love him. With my entire heart.
He’s so sweet and thoughtful to my mama, and it makes my heart ache… in the best way. I feel like I can’t even explain it, but god, I feel it. I think this might be what being in love is. Being perpetually crazy about someone.
“It’s me and you to the stars, Viv. We deal with it together. The happy, the sad, the fear, the pain. We have each other through it all. Because you’re my best friend.”
My god, these guys are out of their minds. Who sneaks a cat into a hospital
Reese has created another cat daddy monster.
These are my favorite moments. When everything’s quiet, it’s just the two of us and Boo cuddled up on our couch, reading one of her supernatural books together after a long day of school, baseball, and studying.
Viv’s the most important thing in my life, even more than baseball… She’s my number one. She’s my heart.
