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It’s not love, but it’s definitely lust, and when it comes to wanting Vivienne Brentwood, I’m a fucking goner. I never stood a damn chance.
“Yeah, okay, Viv. And I would’ve broken his fucking nose, so by all means…” I sweep my hand out toward the bar. “Go back in there and find someone else to kiss. Try me.”
“Fine, Father.” She smarts while she finishes arranging the Uber on her phone. My lips tilt up at her bratty comment. “I prefer Daddy, but whatever works for you, babe.”
“Are you going to waste more time pretending you don’t want this, or are you going to let me fuck the shit out of you?”
Goddamnit, this is the hottest thing I’ve ever experienced. I want her to ride my fucking face so I can drown in her. RIP me, death by pussy. What a fucking way to go.
“Grab the headboard and ride my face.”
Her eyebrows shoot up as if she didn’t expect me to want it, but I do, and right the fuck now, or I’ll, I dunno… die.
“It wasn’t a mistake, Viv.” He snorts. “It was the best sex of my life, and it wasn’t a fucking mistake. Don’t say that shit.”
“You think I don’t want you, Viv? Fuck, I want you so bad I’m losing my goddamn mind. There is nothing more I want in the fucking world than this.”
“Do you fucking see why I’m not going to let you run, Viv? Because if it was a mistake, or if it was wrong, then it wouldn’t fucking feel like this. It wouldn’t feel so goddamn good.”
“You are not fucking alone, Viv. Do you hear me? Not anymore,” he says in a breath against my lips, holding my gaze. “We’re roommates, we’re whatever. But at the end of the day, we’re friends, and I care about you way fucking more than I’m supposed to. You are never going to be alone again.”
“I see you, Vivienne. I see you trying to hide yourself from me, from all of our friends. But I’m going to be here, even when you push me away. Even when you hate me for how annoying I am, for threatening those walls you’ve put up. I’m not going anywhere, baby. Even if all you need from me is to be your punching bag. You are not alone.”
“I didn’t want anyone but you, Vivienne. Not then and not now. It’s only been you.”
I fucking want her. All of her. I want her to be mine.
I want the whole world to know that she’s my girl.
feel so peaceful, and so safe wrapped in his arms... I never want to leave.
can’t watch her lie there because of my selfish actions. I almost lost Mom the same way that I lost my father. It happened all over again, and I can’t process any of it. I wasn’t here for her.
“There was never going to be a time where I was going to just live my life carefree and happy… not without consequences. That’s how things work for me. Everything will inevitably go wrong.”
“This is my fault. It was irresponsible of me to want so much for myself.
You mean a normal college life?
Part of me is aware that I’m self-sabotaging right now, but there’s nothing I do better than this. Hiding my real feelings. Pushing people away because it hurts too much to let them in, because it’s too hard to let them get close. It’s all I know how to do. Defend. Deflect.
His stormy eyes flare with emotion. “Viv, don’t do this. Let me be here for you so you can be there for her. Lean on me. I’ll do whatever you want, whatever you ask of me, but please just don’t ask me to leave. I can’t leave you. I won’t fucking leave you.”
He istrying so hard to help her!
“It’s too heavy, I can’t… I can’t hold it all anymore,”
You have to let it all crumble so you can build it back stronger.
“And this is what you do when you love someone. You stay. You show up for them.” He leans in closer, still holding my gaze. “I will be here to hold the weight when it’s too much. I’ll be your strength when you have none left. I’ll hold you, and I’ll take all the shit you wanna give me. I’ll be whatever you need as long as I’m with you. Let me love you, Viv. Let me be the one to take care of you and to be there for you so you’re never alone. I love you so fucking much that I can hardly breathe sometimes. I just need you to let me love you.”
Everything I kept pushing away in hopes that they’d just… disappear. Except that’s not what happens… it’s what makes you quietly fall apart.
you run when the world gets to be too much, but I’m coming after you, baby. I’ll chase you to the ends of the goddamn earth.”
Awwwww
