The other traditional response to the paradox of spiritual seeking is to fully acknowledge it and concede that all efforts are doomed, because the urge to attain self-transcendence or any other mystical experience is a symptom of the very disease we want to cure. There is nothing to do but give up the search.
Keep gambling while wanting to be free of debt. The constant desire to be free of self itself is preventing one to the freedom that is already there.
