All Fours

by Miranda July

That’s when I discovered there’s no satisfaction in violence; it actually works in reverse, making you the bad one.

It’s brave to feel so much. “Brave? Why?” “I guess because it could…end in pain.” I couldn’t imagine what she meant.

In slide three Davey was standing behind Claire, his hand wrapped around her waist from behind. It was the most violent and obscene image I’d ever seen—a

I pulled up WebMD on my phone and searched for “perimenopause.” It took me straight to menopause; I clicked Symptoms. insomnia vaginal dryness depression

difficulty concentrating racing heart weight gain memory problems dry skin, mouth, and eyes increased urination reduced libido, or sex drive urinary tract infections (UTIs) reduced muscle mass painful or stiff joints sore or tender breasts headaches reduced bone mass less full breasts hair thinning or loss increased hair growth on other areas of the body,

exercise just seemed like a lot of investment in a temporary body.