“If you all wouldn’t mind raising your glasses—” I raise my invisible glass into the air. “—to my sister and my first kiss.” I laugh and a few more tears slip out. “To my sister,” I say, reaching for BJ’s hand. He lifts my hand to his mouth and kisses it as he smiles all tender and lovely. “To my sister too. And—” He pulls an uncomfortable face. “To definitely not my first kiss.”

