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“I’m seventeen now,” I bit out. “But I was seven when you raped me.”
omfg i’m going to cry
“You took four years of my childhood from me, and I’ve been living in a prison in my mind every damn day of my life since. So, if you don’t want to risk spending the next seventeen years of your life behind bars, you’ll get on a plane and never come back!”
“But I feel safe around Gibs,” she told me. “Aside from Johnny, he’s the only other boy whose hands I would willingly put my life in.”
🥹
“Your voice.” He released a pained groan and buried his face in the curve of my neck, hips still thrusting. “I need to hear your voice.” “Why?” “Because I need to know it’s you touching me.”
this is so sad
So, don’t you dare stand here and lie to my face. Unlike you, I have the ability to read a fucking letter, asshole.”
slap her please anyone
“Why are you always siding with him?” she screamed. “I’m supposed to be one of your best friends.”
Acting like Gibsie isn’t also her best friend + the love of her life like stop with the gaslighting
“Yeah but see here’s the difference, Claire. I didn’t drown his sister, but his brother sure as hell drowned mine!”
apparently Lizzie is the only one allowed to grieve their dead sibling
“Hurt people hurt people,” Shannon offered. “I’m not excusing it, but please don’t vilify her for not using healthy ways to cope with her trauma.”
i love you shannon but please shut up
“Time can’t heal when it doesn’t pass by.”
“Every time, Shannon like the river,” he purred, kissing her neck. “Every time, baby.” He pulled back to look at her and released a masculine growl of approval. “You take the breath clean out of me.”
cleared
When I walked into your bedroom to check on you and found him pinning you to your mattress raping you,
i’m going to throw up
(For all who read this letter, let it be known that I, Caoimhe Young, on the night of April 5th, 2000, witnessed my boyfriend, Mark Allen, raping his eleven-year-old stepbrother, Gerard Gibson, while I was supposed to be babysitting him. Let it also be known that eighteen months before witnessing this rape, Gerard Gibson disclosed to me that he didn’t feel safe around Mark, and that he touched him inappropriately. And finally, to my deepest regret, let it be known that I, Caoimhe Young, believed my boyfriend’s word over that of an innocent child.)
this is the saddest shit ever
because while I know I wasn’t your abuser, my lack of willingness to believe your truth hurt you in ways he never could. Goodbye, sweet boy. Caoimhe. x
“sweet boy” omg i’m crying
“Don’t make him relive his worst memories in the middle of a school dance.”
I believe you, Gerard Gibson. I believe you. I believe you. I believe you.
i’m sobbing
People will read this and still say Claire outed him on purpose 🙎🏾♀️ she was overwhelmed by everything going on and tired of Lizzie talking to Gibsie like that after finding out the truth not to mention she’s literally sixteen doing the best she can to help her loved ones
“It shouldn’t have come out like that,”
“Bullshit,” Lizzie screamed, still spitting her pain like venom. “You’re such a fucking liar, Claire!”
Girl stfu this is what pisses me off the most about her you say Mark raped your sister but don’t believe he did anything to Gerard? who was literally a vulnerable child and lived with him like bro a rapist is a rapist if they can do it to one person it’s not insane to think they’ll do it again
“Because I’m fine, Claire! Do you hear me? I’m okay, dammit. I am always okay, Claire!”
“You fucking push, Claire. You push and you push!” He threw his hands up helplessly. “And I don’t have anything left to give.”
i’m gonna cry
“Yeah, I do.” Tears trickled down his cheeks as he cried. “I’m not your boyfriend, Claire Biggs, and I’m not your friend.”
i’ll just kms
“Fuck, Gibs.” A pained cry escaped him. “Not you, lad.” His big shoulders racked with shudders. “Not fucking you, Gibs!”
i’m so tired of crying while reading boys of tommen
“I don’t care what she says. He’s clearly after getting into her head and twisting everything around,” she was screaming. “She’s making all of this up to cover for him.”
you’re genuinely insufferable
I couldn’t live my life with this level of toxicity in it.
exactly why them not being friends anymore is a good thing
“Guys, please,” Shannon offered up. “Please don’t fight.”
shannon i love you but shut up because all of this needs to be said
“Good boy. You’re always okay, aren’t ya?”
i’m actually sobbing and about too throw up like wth am i reading
Caoimhe moved as far away from me as she could get. Like I was dirty. Like I was bad.
i’m bout to lose my mind
“So, what’s it going to be, Gibs?” “Yeah.” I smiled. “I’m in.”
They’re so special to me i can’t
“Because I’ve a feeling there’s an unmerciful beast of a flanker inside you just waiting to come out…”
“Gibs!” Was Feely crying? “Gerard!” My walking heartbeat.
“All the things he did to my body.” Feeling lifeless, I stared blankly ahead, feeling the tears trickling down my cheek. “I didn’t want any of it, Johnny.”
i’m about to scream
“I believe you.”
“You’re the best friend I’ve ever had, and I love the fucking bones of you, ya mad eejit.”
you’re my Gibs.” “And you’re my Kav.”
nobody comes close to them in terms of friendship
Sadhbh Allen ushered another Garda inside the house.
Sadhbh can go straight to hell honestly what in your right mind thought it was a good idea to allow somebody with rape allegations to continue living with you and your minor child?
“Love these boys with our whole hearts, and hope and pray that they’ll pick themselves back up and show us that they’re worth the pain. That they’re worth fighting for.”
“That’s different,” Mam interjected in a weary tone. “Lizzie and her family were mistaken.”
omg shut up shut up shut up regardless of how i feel about Lizzie it’s clear Mark is a horrible person and all of these parents piss me off like how are yall so oblivious
“The way I see it is two innocent families were ruined by one monster,” Hugh continued hoarsely.
“Do you think he’ll hate me forever, Hugh?”
“I don’t think he knows how to hate, Claire.” He sighed again. “He’s been given so many reasons to hate the world, but it’s just not in his nature.”
“You loved her once.” “Yeah, Hugh, we both did, and look where it got us.”
“Don’t turn your back on her, Claire.” He swallowed deeply. “She needs you.”
The world could explode and all Hugh will care about is Lizzie like give it a break bro 😭
“I’m the one who’s been living it.”
“I didn’t know.”
girl choke
breath. “But before anything else, can I just say that I am so sorry for how it came out, Gerard.”
Claire haters will read this and still say she did it on purpose
“I won’t apologize for what I did because I love you. Do you hear me? I love you, Gerard Gibson. I love the boy you were, and I love the man you’ve become.”
“I love you,” he whispered, lips trailing from my cheek to the curve of my neck. “It’s always been you, Claire-Bear.”
GERARD
“I don’t watch you sleep, Claire. I listen to you sleep. The entire house does.”
It was January 6, 2006,
The way all this shit happened in a year is insane
