I didn’t think too much about the words that came out of my mouth. I usually said whatever was on my mind at the time, and it formed the person I had become in the minds of my friends. I was naturally self-deprecating, never purposefully cruel, and it made people laugh. My mouth spurted shit at the expense of my own character, like a cloak of self-sabotaging protection. Nothing I said was for venomous or boasting purposes. It was for sheer protection. It was my safety net. Because I had an acute need to protect myself and I didn’t know how else to do that in a world where everyone aside from
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