But I couldn’t express what was on my mind. Was it normal to feel turned inside out? Was this new hybrid self what my life would be now? Is everyone frightened every day that their baby will die? How can I soothe my inner baby while soothing my actual baby? Would my nervous system feel on edge forever? What is the word for the realization that your society has left you ill-equipped for a major part of the journey of your life? When a mother cries, is it also developmental?
