Saying yes to invitations wasn’t simple. I was anxious about losing the little sleep I was getting. The baby was highly sensitive to different environments and sensory stimulation. I didn’t know what to talk about. I didn’t know what to say about looking after a baby all day. Matrescence was another country, another planet. I didn’t know how to talk about the existential crisis I was facing, or the confronting, encompassing relationship I was now in. I didn’t know what was happening to me. I was ashamed that I felt so overwhelmed. Often, I simply didn’t have the energy to talk.
