I could feel myself getting small. Shrinking into myself the way I always did when something stressful or awful happened. Retreating into my own brain. When I got like this, I didn’t want to see anyone or talk to anyone. I could shut down for days. Turn off my phone, call out of work, abandon my social media. Not answer the door for anyone or anything, cut off everyone until I felt safe enough to start to let them in again a little at a time.
I feel this so deeply it hurts
