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To anyone still trying to figure out who they are: It’s okay not to know just yet. You’ve got your whole life to find the missing pieces.
At this point, I’m ready to go Kool-Aid man on his ass and blast through the wall if I have to.
LMAOO WHAT
Homicide is illegal, and the only person who’d help me hide the body now lives in New Jersey.
HAHAHAHA
Kason: I’m taking your leftovers for lunch. I’ll get you back when I cook this weekend.
watch him have like husband worthy cooking
Nodding a couple times, he offers, “So let’s call a fair catch.”
ROLE THE CREDITS
“You two going out tonight to celebrate?” “The Kappa Sig house, right?”
ISTG EVERYTHING BE HAPPENING THERE BRO
“Considering my best friend is bi and I’m also a member of the alphabet mafia, I’d be one helluva hypocrite if I had any issue with you being into dudes, Kason.”
ALPHABET MAFIA IS WILD
He’d be surprised to know that his slightly neurotic, himbo ass has started to grow on me. A miniscule amount, but it’s growth regardless, and that’s a lot coming from me.
“You mean what game am I gonna be railing your ass in?” “Poor choice of words there, Kase,” I tell him, holding out my arms to the nearly abandoned arcade. “We both know I’m the one who’ll be doing all the railing. Especially when it comes to any game here.”
Uhh okay freaks love the word choice
“Because, despite our rocky start, you’re kinda growing on me.” Frowning, he adds, “Like a fungus or something.”
Wow he really has a way with words doesn't he?
But a slow smirk pulls at his lips as he raises the beer the rest of the way to his mouth and finishes it off. Then he proceeds to floor me further by opening his mouth and saying the filthiest, most seductive thing I’ve ever heard. “And who says you’d be the one doing the fucking, there, Kase?”
I KNEW HE WAS GONNA SAY THAT BRO
“I think that’s my cue to introduce myself.” He holds out his hand between us. “I’m Phoenix.”
IM SO STUPID BRO WHY DIDNT I REALIZE I FORGOT HOLDEN PLAYS FOOTBALL IM CRYING
“Blue Gatorade.” I frown. “What about it?” “It’s Kason’s favorite. I used to bring him one before every game, hand it to him over the wall. And if I couldn’t go, I’d leave him one in the fridge at the apartment.” There’s a sadness woven into his tone when he adds, “It was sort of a tradition.”
Wait why is this making me sad its like an end of an era :(
The Midnight Meat Train.
WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?
“His name is Madden. He plays baseball for Blackmore University.”
NEW CHARACTER UNLOCKED BRO
bumbling,
BRO ISTG I READ THAT WORD 1000 WTF IS HIS OBSESSION WITH IT LMAOO
Just like that, somehow I end up at the edge of their table, staring down at my roommate until he meets my gaze,
BRO NOOOO GTFO WHAT ARE YOU DOING
And my first impression is…holy fuck, he has a lot of ink.
Gotta make a note for later ;)
He doesn’t get to finish his thought before my lips land on his.
Oh!
Oh, you beautiful fucking fool.
“I know what I want. I want you to delete that app and never see any of those fuckers again,” he utters, the words coming out like a harsh command. “Not a single one of them is good enough for you, Kase.” I smile, fingers gripping his waist. “And you think you are?” “I wanna try to be.” His forehead collides with mine. “For you, I wanna try. And that alone is…” “Insane?” He nods, nose brushing mine when he does. “Yeah. Absolutely insane.”
And holy fucking shit. That thing they say about the tall, skinny ones? Absolutely true.
🤭
I’m all for talking this out, making sure we’re on the same page so things don’t get awkward or uncomfortable around here.
PERIOD WE LOVE COMMUNICATION
“That I have no idea what I’m doing, so why don’t you stop asking me questions and just fucking teach me?”
Oop
“You said you want this to mean something.” I nod, searching his eyes. “And with you, it will.”
A curiosity that only grows when I grab the discarded popcorn bucket. Reaching into the bottom where all the remaining butter has pooled together in a nice, little puddle,
THE WAY MY JAW DROPPED… SO THATS WHAT IT MEANT BY UNSANITARY USE OF BUTTER
“Does that say—” “Sure fucking does,” I reply, the words coming out clipped as I read the massive sign Q is holding for the entirety of the airport to see. Congratulations on your penile implant surgery, Hayes!
BYE IM CRYING WHAT
A look that only intensifies when Quinton snaps, “Quit looking at me like that, or I’ll butter your asshole.”
Oh god…
“It is when his head is being turned away from the things that matter, and by someone who has nothing to offer him in the long term, no less.”
Uh okay fuck you too
“Neither, actually. While you may be a product of your environment, you didn’t choose your parents, nor the life they raised you in. Which is why it makes all the sense that you’d seek something better from an outside source.”
Oh she did not just-
“Maybe not, but you’re sure as hell out of your mind. No amount of money on this planet is worth more to me than Hayes.”
Clock it
My chest aches as I look at him, at this perfect, amazing guy who is everything I never knew I needed. How do I tell him that the future I want has him threaded and woven into the fabric now? How can I fight him on something he seems so dead-set on?
Dare i say theyre my favorite so far…
“We don’t know what’ll happen after this. But I have to believe, if we’re supposed to work, then we will. It doesn’t matter if it takes six weeks, ten months, two years; it’ll happen. But for now, it’s just not the right time.” Not the right time.
RIGHT PERSON WRONG TIME TROPE??? STOP IT
Then I kiss him like it’s the last thing I’ll ever do—because it very well might be. Because the ache in my chest is so severe, it feels like I might die on the spot. Like I might cease to exist.
STOP ITTT
His breathing evens out before mine, the hand that was tracing lines over my shoulder falling to the side. I’m grateful he’s the one to succumb first, because it gives me a chance to memorize every inch of him. Each strand of hair laying out of place, all the freckles dotting his nose, the way his eyelashes brush over his cheekbones when he sleeps, every rise and fall of his chest as he slumbers. I take all these little pieces of him for myself, gathering them one by one in my mind. There’s no doubt I’ll have to box them up eventually, put them under lock and key in order to move on from the
...more
This is madness goodbye
“God knows I can’t live, laugh, love with it in its current condition.” “Lobotomies are still legal, you know,” Camden offers from where he’s sitting on the couch. “Live, laugh, lobotomy.”
BYE I LOVE HIM
But all the fight inside me dies the second a tall, dark-haired guy covered in tattoos slips out the front door. One that’s familiar enough to have my stomach roiling at the sight of him. “Madden?”
NEW CHARACTER??? ISTG IF HES BEEN HERE TGIS WHOLE TIME I WILL CRY CAUSE HOW HAVENT I REALIZED
“No, I was just…visiting someone.”
So are you freaking Theo or Cam?
“Seriously? I said sneak—” The brown-haired guy answering the door pauses and frowns. “Oh. Sorry, you’re not who I thought you were.”
OH SO ITS THEO
Theo the Bouncing Blowhard. Got it.
What
“Madden’s my step brother. He was just here to deal with…parent stuff.”
OH GOD I THOUGHT I COULD CATCH A BREAK WITH STEP SIBLINGS
“Where’s the fire?” I ask with a laugh, “It’s at the door waiting for you,” he says with a pant as he looks at me.
HAYES HAYES HAYES HAYES HAYES HAYES
“I love you, Kason. There’s nothing I want more than you. To see you accomplish your dreams, and be at your side while you do it. So I’ll go wherever you go, if you’ll let me.”
“There is no choice. It will always be Kason.” “Hayes Richard, I will not be threatened—” “You can let me know what you decide at graduation next week,” I say, cutting her off. And with that, I end the conversation and the call all at once.
CLOCK HERR
“If this is what it means to be a Lancaster, then I no longer wish to be one.”
LITERARY TELL THEMM
“You know I love you too,” I tell him, a playful lilt in my tone. “But I told you the day you asked for a fair catch, that was my hard limit. It’s not my fault you weren’t listening.”
UGHHH STOP ITS NOT OVERR
