Enlightenment: Behind The Scenes (Reality Explained Trilogy Book 1)

by Marc Leavitt

My actual meditation practice itself was very simple. I used a technique that I had made up myself that was very effective for taming my wild mind. Verify For Yourself... I would start off with my eyes closed and just stare deep into my mind’s eye. The goal is to just abide in silence without getting swept away by distracting thoughts. I would picture the blackness that I was staring into as a big slippery pole that nothing could stick to. As I stared into my mind’s eye or rather this slippery black pole, I could feel thoughts, mental imagery and other movements of the mind begin to develop. However, as long as I focused on the slippery nature of the black pole that I was staring into, no thoughts would stick or actually come into full formation. If you attempt my ‘method’ and succeed at keeping your focus on this formless state of mind long enough, very intense and powerful experiences begin to emerge. There may be feelings of euphoria or transcendence or perhaps a keen sense of peace. But if you can manage to regard even these overwhelming positive feelings as merely a distraction, then eventually something even more profound will take place. This is where I was headed.

Consider the very nature of Awareness. The very essence of Awareness is that it is naturally and intrinsically aware. Since there is nothing ‘else’ to be aware of, Awareness naturally and spontaneously has no other option but to become aware of itself.

Although you can’t actually do anything, you can deepen your understanding of 'what is,' which will provide the necessary conditions for Liberation. You can leave room for the door to swing open, so to speak.

I cannot emphasize enough to you, the reader, that who you are RIGHT NOW is all there is. You truly are the only Subject.

I knew that by definition, God is Infinite so therefore was everywhere at all times. So I just looked for God in the same spot every day which was the Here and Now. I figured that it would be that much easier for God to find me if I stayed Still in the same spot every day, which is Stillness itself. I enjoyed the practice of staying Still, waiting for God to find me, because Stillness was silent, boundless, borderless, dimensionless, timeless and crystal clear. I waited so many years in that sweet beautiful Stillness, waiting for God to show up. But nothing else ever showed. One day, out of the clear blue sky, something told me to look behind me and when I did, I saw that God was behind me the whole time looking through my eyes.

So, as Awareness, you only seem to be ego if that is what you are aware of or focusing on. This is why the most direct practice is simply to look for your true Self. Looking for your Self implies Awareness of Awareness only. Practice Awareness of Awareness until the 'of' drops, leaving only Awareness.

With regards to Enlightenment, the best advice I can give is that you first establish Enlightenment as your primary goal.

The most direct practice is to drop every struggle as you become aware of it, no matter how subtle. Whether it be meditating or dealing with a difficult person in our life, the practice is always the same, which is to boldly give up the struggle … just let go. This practice becomes more difficult as you realize how many internal struggles you experience on a daily basis. This is why it is so vital that you first establish Enlightenment (peace, happiness etc.) as your main agenda and worth the challenging journey.