the conclusion that I could not think straight about the problem anyway. Perhaps this is not the most perfect vocation in the Church, per se. Well, what about it? It seems to be my vocation. That is the thing that matters. What is the use of having some other vocation that is better in itself but is not your own vocation? But how can it be my vocation if I have such a strong desire for some other vocation? Don’t ask me. Our Lord wants that sacrifice.
