Social pressure and the build up of stress are probably the biggest causes of my depressive episodes. I can fall into a very low mood for three to four weeks and during this time I will avoid everything. I shut down. I like to describe it as “going into hibernation.” I’ll stay inside my house, turn my phone off, and ignore all emails except the urgent ones. My mood descends to occasional thoughts of suicide. I’ll spend endless hours crying and feeling as though I’ve fallen into a black hole. But because of how bad I’m feeling I am unable to do the things I enjoy. If I could only do something I
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