It's Not Summer Without You (Summer, #2)

by Jenny Han

We became something. Something that was never exactly defined, but it was something. It was really something.

Diha ka madaot gooorl

It’s all relative, I suppose. You think you know love, you think you know real pain, but you don’t. You don’t know anything.

The only person I wanted was Susannah. She was the only one. And then I had a thought, clear as day. I would never be somebody’s favorite again. I would never be a kid again, not in the same way. That was all over now. She was really gone.

:((((

My dad used to say that with everything in life, there’s the game-changing moment. The one moment everything else hinges upon, but you hardly ever know it at the time.

There have been other girls. But they weren’t her.

All this time, I’d made such a big deal about me and Conrad, how we were some kind of couple. But I’d had to beg him to go to the prom with me, and he hadn’t even remembered to bring me flowers.

Yopak kay na guuurl

It took a minute for everything to sink in. Conrad didn’t just run away to surf. He didn’t run away for the sake of running away. He came to save the house.

“She was my wife, goddamn it. I lost her too.”

Dang, I felt it too.

“You didn’t lose her. You left her. You don’t know the first thing about what she would have wanted. You were never there.

Come back. Be the you I love and remember.

It wasn’t enough to know that deep down, he loved me. You had to actually say it to somebody, show them that you cared. And he just didn’t. Not enough.

“Go to Jeremiah. He’s the one who wants you,” Conrad said. “I don’t. I never did.”

Agay naman Conrad