Although you may be used to a lot of emotionality from the BP/NP, your role as Caretaker is to remain calm, organized, rational, and unemotional. However, inside, you may have high anxiety, sadness, self-critical shame, and even hidden rage and inner guilt, but it is unlikely that you will show that to the BP/NP or anyone else. The BP/NP is often very intolerant of anyone else expressing emotion. So you have learned to ignore or repress your own feelings. You may not even know what your feelings are when you are in the presence of the BP/NP because
